I'm a 17 year old girl and I think I am experiencing symptoms of a kundalini awakening. I have had these symptoms for almost a year now. They are the basic symptoms but just to be specific... These include muscle twitches & spasms (several times a day, impossible to count), what feels like growing pains, occasional numbness of arm or leg, vibrating & crawling sensations especially on face at night, energy rushes throughout the body which I find completely exhilarating. I also get headaches, feel fatigued a lot, hearing strange but blissful sounds, random laughing/singing/dancing (when I'm alone ha ha). I have also come close to having OBE's about 4 or 5 times, each getting more intense.
I feel so blessed to be experiencing something so beautiful so early in life although it does make me feel vastly different from my pessimistic and immature friends. However, I recently have completely accepted who I now am and everything that comes with it. I feel empowered but not conceited, to be where I am in life. However I question as to where I go from here... I know I have already suffered from what they call the "dark night of the soul" and I feel I may be in the awakening state but perhaps not if that comes before. Although I think I am in that state because I feel like I am waiting for something to happen, I am not sure. I do not want to force my kundalini awakening because I have read of people going crazy because they are not ready for it. However I don't know how much longer I can wait. I have felt stuck in the same place for almost a year now.
Any advice as to what I can do as of right now to further my growth? Is there anything else I should know about Kundalini? I am beyond ready for whatever is coming next. On one hand I feel like life is so much richer and vibrant because I can appreciate so much. However, on the other hand it feels like something is missing. Maybe it is because I want to fall in love desperately but I have always been picky because I have always been extremely mature for my age. I have always wanted to be with someone who I can actually "connect" with and it is hard to find someone my age like that.
But anyway enough with my rambling. On a last note any advice on furthering or really anything concerning kundalini and where I'm at? Also, what can I do about feeling stuck and wanting love?