I want to share this story in hopes of enlightening everyone on the existence of our spirituality which resides in each of us, and of the the spiritual realm, which I believe heavily influences, and governs our lives here on earth.
I want to preface this story by shedding light on my religious background. Growing up, I had very little religious influence. My parents weren't religious at all, and never indicated one way or another the existence of God. The only influence I had on believing in God was through my childhood friend whom brought me with them to church occasionally, and my grandma who always gave me The Bible as a gift which I never ever read... (what 7 year old wants to read a big book they don't understand).
I eventually stopped going to church altogether. Throughout high school I was academically argumentative and heavily utilized logic, reason and scientific explanation, and denied the prevalence of mysterious phenomena and things that you can not perceive with any of your 5 senses. I asked deep philosophical questions about human existence "what if... There is more to life? Or what if... We don't live on after we die?" I developed a nihilist and atheistic approach to life during this time, which paralleled my tumultuous and abusive personal life full of anxiety and uncertainty.
I experienced an uncanny amount of misfortune for a period of 6 years with my family, relationships, friendships, finances, illnesses and everything in between. There was a running joke in my family that whatever could go wrong, DID go wrong in my life. I eventually learned to laugh at how unlucky in life I seemed to be. I was a lost and confused individual as I experienced much more painful life lessons than your typical young person. (As a result, I was very mature for my age and befriended those who were MUCH older than me)
I wholeheartedly believe that hardship is a definitive way of making you more spiritual. It thrusted me into a desperate subjective investigation. It wasn't until I made a conscious decision to better myself and my life that everything started to turn around. I fought and struggled within myself for a few years to change aspects of myself that I didn't like and I made a valiant effort to be a more positive person. I opened my heart to the possibility of the miraculous, and to the possibility of Gods existence. It was a grueling back and forth battle to recreate myself and I experienced even more hardship in my physical life, but something spiritual happened to me one day that has changed me forever since.
One morning, I was getting ready for the day in my apartment by myself and I was told to go lay down. I kind of dismissed this at first thinking that it was my own impulsive thought, and that maybe I was just tired. I continued putting my makeup on and it said again "go lay down", this time with a stronger more authoritative tone. I stopped in the middle of doing my makeup to listen to this voice, whatever or whomever they or it was. Something amazing happened.
I laid there and instantaneously received what I call a "download" of wisdom. I was overcome with such a euphoric emotion of love, joy, happiness and gratitude - something I had never felt before and something I haven't felt since! The message I received wasn't audible, it was felt deep within but they were not my words... The voice provided this message: "How could you not be happy for all that God has given you? God is unconditional love, and you yourself are unconditional love. Your power is the love you give, which you get from Him. I am of you, and you are of me. Your purpose here is to serve; to help, teach, and inspire others." I was so overwhelmed as I hadn't ever experienced such bliss, and words of wisdom that was so impactful and necessary for me to hear at that time and from that instant, my perspective on life became more clear. For someone with little to no religious background, where could this all come from? "On that day you will realize that I am in my Father, and you are in me, and I am in you." (John 14:20). There really IS more to life, and I was personally selected to receive a message of guidance from someone or something to guide me on the path to God. I looked at the clock right after this happened and it was 11:11am. I have since received a few more experiences, which were coincidentally received at the same time 11:11. (Side note: do NOT fall pray to numerology; there is only ONE path to God and that is through Jesus Christ)
Other messages were not so intensely emotional, I believe the other messages to be personal epiphanies from my soul "To love is to trust and that leaves no room for fear!"
Ever since these experiences, it brought me closer to God and closer to my Lord and Savior, Jesus Christ...
Its comforting to know that these experiences are more common than you would think! I used to think I was weird and that no one understood me or believed me...
"A human being is a synthesis of the infinite and the finite, of the temporal and the eternal, of freedom and necessity, in short, a synthesis. A synthesis is a relation between two." (Soren Kierkegaard)
Human existence is not to be taken at face value. As said in my favorite quote above, human existence is a synthesis, comprised of two parts: a physical body, and a spirit or soul, which is our true self that never changes. While our physical bodies are temporary and ever-changing, our soul lives forever, and is fixed. I hold the view that this reality is not absolute as it is in a state of constant flux. Absolute reality is Truth; in the sense that the Truth is always what it is objectively, and can never change. Our soul desperately desires to coincide with Truth. In this reality, this subjective reality, our physical bodies experience in order to learn to further develop our soul, particularly through adversity. Choose the light, fight for positivity and goodness, never lose faith, and ask in prayer for help if you need it. God Bless, daniii