First of all I would like to start off by saying how thrilled I am that I came across this site because, and I know I speak for everyone who is using this site at present, it helps us realize that we aren't going insane. People are actually having the same experiences as me and that is wonderful.
I've always felt different. But over the years I've kind of taught myself to embrace this as a positive attribute rather than thinking I'm a freak. I can read peoples emotions, and know instantly if someone is lying to me. It's strange, it's like some telepathic voice in my head is saying "he is lying. This is what really happened". Etc etc.
Anyway, over the years I have had quite a few spiritual experiences, its the one that occurred the other night which has prompted me into doing something about it and would be grateful for any advice from anyone at all who can let me know what it means.
I genuinely believe that it was a spiritual experience and that I was guided through it by what I can only describe as a spirit guide.
Basically I was very ill for 4 days. Felt I was dying it was that bad. This is when I believe the spirits zoned in on me as the last time I was at my lowest ebb they did the same then too but not to the same extent as this time. Anyway I finally got better and literally felt the most positive vibe I have ever felt in all of my life, prioritized things in my life etc etc. Maybe I had experienced a spiritual awakening?
That night when I went to bed and was in the semi conscious state of sleep and awake I started seeing images what I can only describe as a kaleidoscope, I allowed myself to focus on them, and can remember half opening one eye to enable the image to form into a shape I recognized It was at this point that I literally felt myself leaving my body. The moment I registered this was happening and told myself it was happening I felt myself climb back into myself. It was bizarre.
Anyway I decided to get myself back into the trance like state I felt like I was in moments earlier. Got the images back. Formed the shapes etc, which at first were hundreds and hundreds of hands, beckoning me to them, then it happened again. I didn't think about it, I just went with it. Eventually I was floating but not in my bedroom, I wasn't looking down on myself or anything like that I was just floating. To be honest I felt like I was in a lovely forest. It was very peaceful.
I then felt a presence beside me who basically made me realize I was having a spiritual experience. She was called margaret and she was at my side at all times as I was moving through the air. It was amazing. I was ducking and diving, literally flying through the air, I was telepathically communicating with margaret, I asked her if I was in spirit world and she said "yes" in the most surreal voice imaginable.
To cut a very long story short, I could see images that eventually became people and they were waving at me and saying "over here, over here, over here", over and over again, their voices were angelic. I wasn't afraid. I seen many people, 4 of which were holding each other dancing in a circle, waving at me. I felt so warm inside. Then I was flying over rows and rows of soldiers, all doing the same motion, as if they were boxing, I then headed to what looked like a tree, but which eventually changed shape and was loads of faceless men beckoning me to them. The faces slowly began to form, I remember desperately trying to see a face which I recognized (at this point I was on my own. I have no clue where "margaret" went. But I didn't feel afraid).
Anyway as I was flying towards these people something caught my eye to my right. It was of two really large figures, I felt myself getting drawn more towards them which concerned me a bit. I wasn't sure who they were or whether they were good or bad so somehow managed to stop myself going further, and then I eventually woke up. I was literally staring at the ceiling, feeling so empowered, it was amazing.
I am now in the "what should I do now" stage. I'm wondering if this is my calling now. Part of me is terrified about going to bed as I am a little bit afraid of the unknown, and part of me is wanting to seek out developmental classes to help develop this gift that I'm sure I have. I would be very interested in seeing what people think about this.