I was on a religious retreat about two weeks ago and I think I experienced the Holy Spirit. For about six months up to that night I had been praying to Jesus and imploring him to help me experience his love for me in my heart. I knew, in my head, how much he loved me. This is something that I have prodigiously been told both as a child and as an adult. But in my heart it was not known. So I prayed and prayed that he would show me this love.
I went to bed that night, thanking God for the gift of faith bestowed upon me and I was thanking him more fervently than ever before and then suddenly I felt a charge go through my body. My eyes were closed but I could feel my eyelids flickering. When I did open my eyes I could not stop them crying. The bed was shaking slightly and I remember feeling a warmth encompass my whole body. The whole thing only lasted about 5 seconds. I knew in that moment I was not alone. I felt the Holy Spirit and Jesus were very close and although this is a very beautiful thing, it scared me.
Since then, I have felt that Jesus has been very close to my heart. I have felt re-energised in my faith, and I have no doubts that I want to devote my life to God. I am so happy in my faith that I am actually terrified that Jesus will leave me in some way or that I will become distanced from him. And the thought of that scares me deeply.
I was wondering what people make of this experience? I truly believe it was the Holy Spirit and when I think about it I feel so full of happiness and so lucky. I'm interested in other peoples experiences too and what people think experiences like this one that I had mean?