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A Journey With My Spirit Guide


So I am here to connect, share and reflect on the events and messages I have been receiving from my spirit guide and want to connect with others who are on a similar path or generally just curious.

On 29th September 2016 I lost my 23-year-old best friend and cousin to suicide. Without a word being spoken, he was gone and left us with a lifetime of unanswered questions that will never be answered. I was so close to him that I began to actually understand the logic behind the cause (in the best I could) when no one else would even try. I will never forget the pain and sadness I felt in losing someone so close because no one believes it will happen to them or their family until you get that call.

A few days before the funeral (when his spirit was newly pure) I received a beautiful message from him. The most perfect white feather on the wall near my bed, I could feel the warmth in his presence. I was not alone as my best friend also experienced his message and the bright white feather disappeared within 45 minutes and he was gone. I did not tell many people about this experience because it was so special and personal but also because the majority would think I've lost my marbles.

Since this I have been trying my best to get on with life by progressing in my career and moving into a house with my best friend. It has been until recently where I have started noticing the synchronicity in everything around me. I understand astrology and that the world is changing this year compared to 2016 and that people are waking up but I have felt this awareness more so than ever before. Feelings and signs that are impossible to ignore or think it is a coincidence; recurring dreams, recurring patterns in numbers, constant double numbers when I look at the clock (most hours) which is usually symptoms of spiritual awakening although I know this is through the help of my spirit guide, my cousin and my protector. Without going into too much detail, examples that he was present were; lights flickering, music playing randomly that would relate to him, dreams where we are connected, photos turning up at my new house when we were young, always seeing one bright star at night, white feathers unexpectedly falling or finding them in strange places, etc.

I then looked into ways to communicate with my spirit guide e.g. Mediums but this could also invite negative spirits and I did not want to jeopardies his connection because each time was more special and I became more aware. I have spent hours researching into spirit guides which has lead me here, now. The fulfillment I feel of getting closer to truths and hopes about the universe linked to spirituality has never been so strong. I now feel connected and more aware of how he is waking me up to see everything in a different light.

I have recently felt withdrawn from others around me and spent this time questioning myself. I feel that I have absorbed negativity from certain friends that has left me feeling drained and questioning the friendship and if it is healthy. I find myself wanting to connect only with my best friend and someone online who understands from being on a similar vibration, the one I am now discovering. I feel isolated from people I would usually make the effort with, but maybe this is just a process? Maybe this is just leading to a more positive path?

Normality to daily living routines or materialistic objects have now been distracted by investigating these signs, messages and feelings more to raise my awareness. It is a quest to authenticity, simplicity, real things, that truly lead to my heart.

I am content in myself through achieving a degree and from gaining a professional job in helping and supporting others but I feel like I have a recent deep yearning for a meaning in my own path in life. I want to have a purpose, a goal when I wake up. Before receiving all the messages and feelings, I thought I truly knew myself (just did some growing up to accomplish!) but really I don't want to be defined by society or others anymore. I want to learn and grow my true ''self'' and bored of wearing a mask that has been worn for too long in order to be what others expect. I do not want to see through the filter of the illusions of society anymore, but through the filter of the heart and soul. The desire to reconnect who I really am which is becoming stronger and to finally acknowledge that I have the answers to my ''self''. I am aware that through this journey I can ask for the help of others (family and friends) and be inspired by others, but only myself, my higher self and higher consciousness can give the answers I am waiting for. I have always enjoyed my own company but the recent desire is stronger to spend time alone, to meditate, to research and to trust my intuitions.

I now have the understanding that the more you grow spiritually, the more your energy increases, and the more you will understand how perfectly everything is orchestrated. You meet the right people, at the right place, at the right time, you desire something and it happens. The more positive your energy is (higher vibration), the more you will attract positive circumstances in your life.

I am now beginning to know my emotions' purpose and what vibration I hold. Living in fear or worry is the worst thing to do as we create our reality based on our own thoughts and we attract that which we give our attention to. It is important to base decisions on love and trust and to be in gratitude and joy. It is key to be make ourselves more connected with the world and what is going on around us to build a better place for ourselves and each other. Your heart and your soul only feel fulfilled when you are of service to the world. You don't look for gratification for what you do or getting anything back, you just want to give and love for free.

We are one with all living beings and nature and all of this should make you feel a deep feeling of bliss. A burn in your chest, of love towards life, of gratitude, of joy, of enthusiasm for no reason or to make these positive changes. Love is the key to our journey through life and to love yourself is the first step. I have been shown a way through my spirit guide to accept and move forward no matter who we are or what our backgrounds. I have been awakened and it is the start of a new life.

I hope you have enjoyed reading my blog and thank you for taking the time. Feel free to message me:-)

Thank you,

Peace, Love and Light

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Anon (guest)
4 years ago (2020-01-30)
I firmly believe I time travelled to the beginning of creation and prevented Apophis from existing and that storms are caused by something else.

Would you like to share that belief with me?

Apophis was Egyptian Satan on a different timeline. More or less.
Anon (guest)
4 years ago (2020-01-30)
Hey there

Nice stuff:)

The spoon exists in so far as the spoon wants to also.

Wants is kind of a loose term here, it implies independence sentience.

According to one view of mutual origination? I think it's called in buddhism, I don't know if I read this correctly

"This is therefore so is that"

The spoon is because the particles that make the spoon want to be a spoon and because there are beings that want there to be a spoon to use

Want isn't the correct word

Belief maybe?

Particles aware that spoon configuration is possible arrange into spoon configuration in the presence of belief that spoon exists is greater than belief that spoon does not

So if everyone in the house believes there is a spoon in the drawer, the weight of belief is stacked towards spoon existing

If everyone believes that spoon can suddenly disappear and talk about things disappearing

Surprise surprise spoon goes missing

Then everyone believes they just misplaced it

Surprise surprise spoon shows up again

You believe in synchronicity, it happens. You dont, it does not.

At least not for you.

Watch out for beings influencing your beliefs;)

Sometimes they look like higher powers but maybe they ought to be respecting your freedom of choice and belief;)

That way if you and spoon want spoon to exist there it is
Loulou66 (guest)
6 years ago (2017-12-16)
Hi I felt a similarity in your story, I get a lot of recurring numbers like '111', or '777', don't know what it all means though, and white feathers appearing in odd places. I see little birds like Robins appearing a lot, people say it is our spirit guides letting us know that they are near. I am sure that your friend is sending you messages of encouragement through these signs. Best wishes to you.
Pearl (1 posts)
7 years ago (2017-09-03)

I have gone through the same experience after the death of my beloved father 2 years ago. I have gone through much much deeper and am actually thinking of writing a book of it.

Do you still experience this? You can write me at pearlz [at]

niltwill (1 posts)
7 years ago (2017-04-17)

Suicide... That sounds tough. Well, I can partly relate in some of your grief... As I lost most of my family members one after another under a few years, only have a father and brother remaining. This sort of occurrence makes you think about the nature of death... Death is not the end, but a new (happy) beginning. For the soul, it is like no longer using a certain garment and putting on another. Thus, if I could control the feeling myself, I'd rather feel happy for those who go on and wish them the best wherever they are now or beyond.

"Everybody dies perfectly on time. There are no mistakes. Whether they die after nine days, twelve months or five years. It is all carefully orchestrated by the soul prior its incarnation. Remember that for the soul, this life on Earth is not the final destination. It is like a school or college, and some graduate early and others later. It all depends on the lessons the soul wishes to learn and to experience."

The keyword here, I think is: experience. That's what we are all here for. To gain plenty of those.

"There is no death. Life and consciousness continue after the transition we call 'death.'"

And that is an encouraging thought. People often give in too easily to the notion of 'permanent death'.

I also feel isolation with most other people. That's just the way it is. This is because of having different priorities.

So what sorta goal do you wish to have? Shine In Thy Own Self. Reflect your light so it may shine down on others and inspire them?

I'd feel like I'm missing out on my time, cause whenever I don't get to know something new (spiritually), I feel like I regress. I start feeling really terrible when I begin to waste my time, or if I'm not growing positively in some aspect...

So you seem intrigued about the true self? Great. I've started this journey as a young child and never been the same since.

As you said, consciousness creates or forms our reality and the way of our being is what decides how we will experience reality.

Reality IS in fact what you want it to be. That which 'bends' is only one's Self. Take a simple utility: spoon is only a concept created by the mind to aid in the mutual understanding of a tool that is used in the aid of eating. But if there are no minds to conceptualize the idea of a spoon, then the spoon does not truly exist. Therefore, only consciousness brings these ideas into reality.

You feel Oneness. I also.

And love... Real love is without any motive. That is to say, when one needs someone, that is also a motive. I came to understand this. Pure love, real love exists where there is no selfishness; when there are no feelings of 'yours-mine'. It is about being able to 'see' "you" as "me", or "me" as "you".

This definition of love, I found it beautiful:

"That which increases one moment and decreases the next, is not love: That which resides in the heart and remains the same, is real love."

"Love should be unwavering, unchanging. Real love does not increase or decrease. It does not fluctuate. It should always remain the same. Otherwise it is not pure love. There is no action and reaction in real love. The flow of love is constant. Real love remains constant; there is no increase or decrease, no give and take."

"Pure love remains unaffected whether someone insults me or gives me a lot of attention and respect. What people say to me or do for me has no bearing on my love. Elsewhere in the world as long as you do favors for people, their love will stay with you and it will fall apart when you stop. How can you call that love?"

"Real love is unadulterated and pure. Real love does not have motives of sex, greed or pride. Such unadulterated love turns man into God. The methods are all easy, but to become that is very difficult. On the contrary, if he surrenders to illusion and worldly objects, he will get more of the same."

"The one with pure love will remain calm when scolded, offended or teased and take the utmost care not to hurt the offender. In the presence of such love, even the wicked person would melt and surrender."

"No matter how many terms or conditions of an agreement or promises are broken by the other, the one with real love continues to remain sincere. Such sincerity remains in acts and also in the eyes of the one with real love. That is when you will know what love really is."

"When you search for love, know that you do not have love within you. How can you expect to see love in others when you do not have it yourself? It is only when you have love within you that you will see it in others."

"In love, one never sees any faults at all. Love lasts forever. Love is unchanging; whenever you see it, it is always the same. One can comfort and solace in this kind of love only. In love there should be no sulking or moodiness. One's love should never fluctuate."

"Pure love makes people blissful. This love creates a permanent bond between them. This love is beyond this world. There is no hint of worldly love in it."

"Real love is when one completely sacrifices and surrenders, without regards to his or her 'safe side', selfish interest."

"The only way to improve this world is through love. There is simply no expectation in love. There is equal love for the alcoholic as well as the one who is sober. There is no expectation in love. Love never expects anything. Love is beyond the relative dualities. If one wishes to be appreciated, it is not love. That is all an illusion. Real love has no limitations, or separation. It is boundless."

Hope that helped a little.

P.S. There's plenty of other spiritual material you might like to read that I have collected along the years, feel free to e-mail me if you're interested. Though I suppose figuring it out all on your own is better.

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