As many whom read this site are well aware, for some time now I have been talking about taking "my final journey." Well I can now say that is completed!
I post the following not as a passage to tear down ones religious beliefs, or say that my way is the only way because it isn't as you all know. The following story comes from an experience of reading a book. As I continue to expand my knowledge and inner belief systems I find myself being drawn to or in this case "guided" to various publications.
The most recent publication I was guided to was as follows:
A Course In Miracles (the full original text edition, not the watered-down version)
The material was originally "channeled" from whom the author claimed was called Jesus. You do not have to believe where the material came from, there may be information on the internet that dispels everything written in it, I will not judge one way or another. None of that is important in this instance, only that I was guided to this book and the information I have found in it has been quite a revelation FOR ME.
Now to the meat of the experience!
I have been preparing myself for some time now for the journey to Golgotha as I had been informed that it will be the final part of my spiritual re-awakening adventure.
As a result I have had several preconceived notions based on my interpretations of information received, as to what this would entail, essentially a forgiveness of many things that have occurred within my family in the past.
During the time I was experiencing helping young Artie, I was told that my final journey was to begin shortly even though I wasn't sure I was really ready for it. The original intention was to walk behind Christ, within the crowd and observe the reactions of my fellow man as he was marched to Golgotha. I was supposed to pay particular attention to the human emotions of the event.
I truly believed this is what was going to take place, only now I realize it was my Ego that believed this and that is what was channeled to me because that is what I, or rather my Ego wanted to see.
So as you can see I am now primed, my senses are keen to please, or rather my EGO is keen to please and see this happen. My Soul already knows all about this stuff and is rather "...ho hum, yawn..." about the whole thing, as the Soul will be, considering it is of GOD and the Ego is of Man.
So I continue my reading of the book knowing that my journey is almost complete, wow what does the future have in store, I am primed, I am now really pumped, psyched in the knowledge that the continuing glory of the Father is but a mere spiritual journey away!
I came across a section on page 139 (iPad version) which changed the whole game for me...
3 The journey to the cross should be the last foolish journey for every mind. Do not dwell upon it, but dismiss it as accomplished. If you can accept it as your own last foolish journey, you are also free to join my resurrection. Human living has indeed been needlessly wasted in a repetition compulsion. It reenacts the separation, the loss of power, the foolish journey of the ego in an attempt at reparation, and finally the crucifixion of the body or death.
4 Repetition compulsions can be endless unless they are given up by an act of will. Do not make the pathetic human error of "clinging to the old rugged cross." The only message of the crucifixion was that we can overcome the cross. Unless you do so, you are free to crucify yourself as often as you choose. But this is not the Gospel I intended to offer you. We have another journey to undertake, and if you will read these lessons carefully, they will help to prepare you to undertake it...
Now here I must state quite clearly once again this is not published as an attempt to change, destroy or try to say any negative about ones individual religious beliefs, it is merely a passage to generate some thought...
Back to the rest of the experience
Well as you can imagine the above passage put my head in a spin as it is very blunt and appears to be aimed directly at people like me. Further on in the book is a chapter dedicated to the Crucifixion and it is a much "gentler" read than the passage I have included. That is for discussion at another time though, anyway back to the experience itself...
"Ah Brother what are you telling us?"
"It is very simple James, are you clinging to the past or moving forward and evolving in the knowledge of the past?"
"So what of my journey to Golgotha, was that it!?"
"Yes, are you surprised"
"Well in a manner of speaking speechless, what about observing my fellow man and experiencing the emotion of the event?"
"James, have you not carried my cross and felt the weight of the world?"
"Have you not been on the cross yourself and felt the pain that the Son of Man endured?"
"James you have already experienced all you need to know about the Journey to Atonement and have also experienced the Resurrection in the Cave and the Garden. James you have witnessed my birth, death, resurrection and ascension, you completed your awakening a long time ago only now have you realized it"
"So my final journey to Golgotha was in fact to realize that I didn't have to make the actual journey itself but to understand what the significance of the Crucifixion was in terms of your relationship to your fellow man, the Father and life itself"
"Yes my Brother, for you have indeed now moved beyond the Cross, your journey is now an open book with blank pages for you to fill with the wonders that is life and all in the loving arms of your Father in Heaven"
As you can see my whole world that I thought I knew has just been turned upside down (again!), given a good dusting and basically thrown out the window.
Okay, this isn't real is it. Here we go again with the questions, time to consult the Higher Self and sure enough the answers that come back are affirmative in nature and no I am not going nuts!
"Brother you have thrown my world for a loop right now, I am not sure of what has just happened but I now feel at peace, warm and extremely content, is this surreal!?"
"James you have taken the final step to truly understanding the nature of your Soul and the journey it is undertaking. You tell others repeatedly they are much more than they appear and yet you deny it for yourself, please, no more, you are WHO YOU ARE, you along with all your fellow brethren are the blessed children of the Father In Heaven, you need to stop denying the knowledge of the creation you are any longer.
Venture forth and experience all you have denied yourself in the service of others, you are my Brother and I stand with you all the time, always have, always will. From before your birth, your days as a little boy, when you doubted me, doubted yourself, from the Garden, to walk with me now and beyond..."
Well I am still speechless, it is strange I can't remember what my wife said that morning some days and yet the words above are there in my memory as a permanent reminder I guess to the wonder of the experience.
You do not have to believe the source of any of this, that is the true nature of of WHO we each are, we are individuals with individual beliefs, on our own Journeys all eventually meeting at the same place. There will be those who will feel their beliefs have just been challenged by me because the passage did not come from the Bible. I couldn't quote one verse from the Bible, to be honest, simply because I don't know any!
Let me assure you now more than ever, I cherish your personal beliefs or non-beliefs for that matter as I cherish you al, l my Brothers and Sisters in God. Your faith is what guides you, regardless of what others think or say:
May your Faith be seen in your Actions and all your future actions be guided by your Faith, for without Faith your Actions are indeed empty and without Actions your Faith is also empty.
I now move forward into what, well I guess I will just have to experience it. There are millions who have gone before me so the road will not be a lonely one and there will be millions following behind in the next year or so.
Be not afraid of the path you follow for it leads to the Glory that is You, the Glory that is The Father in all of you.
To quote Andrew Lloyd Webber, from The Music of The Night
"...Let your Soul take you where you long to be..."
May the One WHO gave his ALL so that man can move forward and evolve in the glory of HIS Light, along with the LIGHT and LOVE that is the Father in Heaven shine on, through, within, and surround each and every one of you forever more...
If you are looking for me simply gaze into the night sky and look for:
"...the 2nd star on the right and straight on until morning!..."
Till we all meet again...