I am not sure why I want to share this, this is my story of my journey to a greater understanding of the ways of our world.
I have always had a sense that there is something I have to do and had no idea what these feelings were or what I have to do.
I started buying a house with my girlfriend from high school when I was 20. My head was screwed on straight and I had goals. We were always struggling to make ends meet, but always did. We had to sacrifice a lot and through stress, being over worked and not having enough time together we drifted apart.
We broke up and I paid her out of the house in 2003, which I still live in. After never being single out of high school I became so lost and drank a lot. For some reason I even took up smoking. I became depressed and was on a spiral down.
One night in 2004 I had had a fair bit to drink and was out of smokes so I jumped in my car to get some from a service station around the corner. After buying them for some reason I wanted to go for a drive to the top of a mountain near my place where you can see the city lights. I do not know why I did this because I usually can not stand idiots that get intoxicated then drive.
I was driving too fast for this 100 degree corner that happened to be on a cliff. I ended up bouncing of the armco nearly writing my car off. I was at my lowest. I could not believe what I done.
I could not sleep that night at all, and the next morning I went and told my parents. Soon I needed another pack of smokes so I borrowed my mums car to go and get some.
This is what freaked me out. As soon as the car started and the radio came on, the news was on the radio and the first thing that was said was. "Last night a 23 year old woman was traveling to Toowoomba when she failed to turn a corner, she crashed through the armco and rolled into a creek and drowned". Was that a coincidence?
Instantly I had chills and could not stop thinking that could have so easily been me. Why was I so lucky. I wished it was me and not her, I felt so bad. So after that I felt I had a purpose stronger then ever.
This was the first event that contributed to who I am today. More to come.
Peace Love and Happiness to all! Dylan