I was 19 years old at the time and in a bad way. I was with my parents in the South of France at the time (I know that doesn't sound so bad, but at the time, I barely noticed my surroundings). My parents had move there a year before while I was in college. It was now summer break and since they no longer had a home in the US, I had no where else to go at the time.
I was anxious the entire time I was there. My experience at college was awful. I was failing most of my classes and drinking and sleeping most of the time. On top of that I had become promiscuous (due to all the drinking) and severely depressed. I knew I wasn't going back to school and I dreaded the day my report card would show up and I would have to face the music with my Dad.
The day came. It was horrible, just as I'd imagined. My Dad was so disappointed... no, disgusted. He just told me, in no uncertain terms, that when we got back to the states, I was on my own. No more college, no more nothing. He was done with me.
It shook me to the core. I cried uncontrollably back in my room. I had no idea where I would turn and who I would turn to. I had a few friends I had made back in college, but had no idea if they would need a roommate or be able to take me in. I have never felt so alone (lonely), scared, vulnerable and lost.
It was then that I needed to get out. I walked to the beach, just trying to breathe. I was distraught. I walked along the beach until I made it out to the rocks that formed a long way out into the mediterranean. I sat on those rocks and prayed like I had never prayed before. It was between me and God, the Holy Spirit... All of the above. I cried and prayed and asked for strength and guidance. And then, I looked up. And there, in front of me, was the most beautiful sight. A rainbow had appeared, the most beautiful rainbow I have ever seen. And I knew in my heart it was for me. It was a sign of hope and love, a sign I will never forget as long as I live. I knew it was God - he was telling me that he was there for me and I was not alone.
I got through the tough times, on my own. It was rough, but I believed in myself even if no one else did. Today I am married to an awesome man and I have two awesome boys. But that day will stay with me forever - my prayers had been answered!