While I was visiting my mother in law, we were talking about the regret and sadness that we feel because my sister in law has breast cancer which is rare and the treatment it very aggressive. Also she was telling me how people who haven't spoken to her in a very long time, all of a sudden call to ask how her daughter was.
She explained her confusion and troubled mind with trying to make time for them as they didn't for her while her hand was open. Then the conversation changed to her telling me about her plea to Jesus in church and how she did not care if people were looking at her while she was starring at the cross, praying to Jesus to heal her daughter.
Then did we feel an immense surge of love. I felt the strength in my heart tighten and a haze over my eyes for a second, then we both started to cry at the exact same time. I said to my mother in law, "He heard us, he heard us". Nothing else was said but it lingered in my heart, while I was silently always asking please grace me with the correct words to strengthen and humble my mother in laws heart.
When I got home that night, all of a sudden I heard / felt a insight of wisdom. Jesus did hear our plea from our humble heart but first he wants us to, forgive with kindness and friendship to those who did not offer friendship and kindness to us.
It was so clear, this situation with people calling her who did wrong to her in the past, now call. The realization was so great I stood in one spot for a while just smiling with my eyes and face. Then I had a great urge to write. I had to tell her to please welcome all who call her, we must open our hearts away from sin so our inner wall in down so we can receive his glory.
We can't ask for such a great blessing then in the next breath turn others away. I had to tell her, so I typed what I heard inside my heart. This is what I wrote;
Guidance to you all and grace to you from the Holy Spirit.
Hence an opportunity to be like our dear father. An opportunity and calling to reconcile and be able to see all his glory by being like him.
You see, we have been walking our minutes, days, yearly, millennium lives, without likeness or backwards step to our dear father.
Then as soon as bad fortune arises or an event or person comes our way, or life threatening disease, only then do we call to God, whom has always been there for us all the time, always completing his grace to us all, without us recognizing this or even thanking him in any way. Never the less he still loves us and still does these things because he already has forgiven us, which was made possible through Jesus
So... We come across people from now or past whom all of the sudden, want to talk, may be due to a sickness and we say, Now they call, why should I forget all that they have done to me, they have forgotten all that I have done for them, and didn't even thank me for the things that I done, I loved them so much and they didn't reflect this back by keeping in contact or giving back in any way, or maybe they didn't even say hello.
We must be like him in every way; he shows us how to be in our lives.
When we can awaken and see all the graces that he does in our lives and say, (This is when the prayer came to me)
Dear Father... You have walked with me and helped me and forgiven me when I was not aware, when I was astray from your family, and times when I did not even thank you when you helped me, or times when you sent your angel whom was in front of me and I did not even say hello or thank you with open hands and heart for all your hardships.
Father, I am sorry for these times, and I want to acknowledge these times of blindness from my sake, by, Forgiving and being Kind and Graceful and Helpful and Happy, to those who;
Did not say hello to me, when I stood in front of them. To those who were not loyal to me as, when I was in front of them, or thinking or praying for them.
To those who didn't acknowledge me for my kindness and helpfulness when my hand was extended.
Father, by your mercy I forgive and let go off all these things as I ask, dear father for you to please forgive me.
I wish to be like you and dare not be anything else if I want to be worthy to ask for your mercy in this moment of my life.
Dear father, I want to be worthy to receive your grace. I want to make you happy and rejoice that we can be like you and love those without our written recorded script in our minds, but with the same love and mercy that you have always shown us, that is, without script.
Please grace me that when, I may plea for your mercy with my daily hardships of our blessed lives, that we can be more alike, as you made us in your likeness, and thus be able to be like Jesus and heal our hardships through your mercy.
I pray this every night, in hope and knowing that you may bless us with you mercy and heal us where needed in our bodies and lives. AMEN
That next day, I drove all the way to my mother in laws house with this printed prayer.
This is my first mission for God's word and nothing was going to stop me, as I knew that the uncomfortable feeling of embarrassment or any other bad feeling is not whom I belong to anymore. I belong to Gods family and can see and hear good and bad inside myself and choose not to react to the bad feelings or thoughts anymore because I know this is not where I belong.
When I got to their house she was not home, so I left in on the back porch with a covering letter. My duty is still not over, as I hasn't spoken in person with her about this prayer and how it came to me.
I must do this very soon, because this is the one way that Jesus will heal her body if she recognizes these traits within side her mind that maybe weighing a small wall in front of her heart that is pushing God's blessing away that he so longs for all of us to see and submit to.
Please to you all, I also plea if you pray to God and ask him to heal or help you. First look unto yourselves and see how you can change your lives just through forgiveness that is being kind to those who submit you to bad feelings or thoughts.
Forgive those in past, as Jesus has already forgiven all your past sins.
You see, to react to the bad feelings for whatever situation is to pass evil unto one another.
Please ask for peace, by bringing peace to those who are bad to you. As this is what he is doing unto us.
You must be able to see the likeness. Allow yourself to feel love from a humble heart, that is totally submitting yourself unto Jesus, as he submitted himself unto us.
Open your hands to symbolize your open heart and just feel with your heart and not with the mind of a man, but from the heart of god's soul which is within all of us.
We seek for him all the time, not truly recognizing with our humbled open hearts that he is already within is, inside our very inner man that is called peace which is a reflection of his love and promised kingdom, if we just submit our hearts to his blow of love and wipe away the doubt and fear that holds us back from turning around to truly see and be with God each day.
We do this by, doing unto others the same which we ask of Jesus.