I have been running a successful business for some time now, with little thought for religion or the spiritual realm. Several years ago my beloved grandmother died and I read Allison Dubois' first book for comfort and did nothing more in that regard until very recently.
A few months ago, I began thinking of my grandmother a lot for comfort and to feel her near me during my day-to-day grind. I felt the urge to buy and read Ms Dubois' second book, read it over 24 hours and then began incessantly calling my grandmother to visit me in my dreams.
She responded, only she visited my mother in her dream state instead. At around the same time, she began leaving me indications of her presence in my daily life - such as reminders of butterflies, which we all associated her with.
What followed then however, were a series of daily and fortunate 'coincidences', that were happening to me so frequently, that I began to attribute this to the spiritual realm in general, all the while wondering: "Why me?"
I began surfing the internet for clues and instantly came across the Zener cards idea. I got some blank business cards and wrote the same signs on them to test my clairvoyant ability, really as a bit of a laugh. I was floored to discover that with enough patience, I was seeing the shapes on the upturned cards being drawn in my mind.
I ordered John Edward's 6 CD Psychic Powers set, in which he told me to try tarot cards. I remembered that I had a set of tarot cards and a book tucked away somewhere that I had never used. I have now been using them at every spare moment for the past two weeks, because what I believe to be my spirit guides are literally training me in my development through them.
The consistent accuracy of the cards was a shock at first, but surprisingly, I have now become quite used to asking my spirit guides questions about any old thing by consulting my tarot cards! I have even asked them if they think I'm a pest, but they have been really nice about it.
Just to make sure that I am not completely delusional, I have done some readings for three people I know, who have all walked away completely shocked at the accuracy and detail they received from me. I just said: "But I'm just the messenger!"
My problem is that my progression has not been easy. Through it all I have been suffering from lack of sleep, as I have been struggling to get to grips with every new amazing and foreign change as it happens to me. I have no family history of psychic ability that anyone is aware of, apart from the grim fact that my grandfather, now deceased, went mad because he kept seeing evil spirits. Consequently, apart from my spirit guides, who I am overworking, I am completely alone in all of this.
Over the last few days, I have been wanting more from my spirit guides, so recently, I assigned the letters of the alphabet to my tarot cards, normal and reversed, to see if they would communicate with me in full and accurate sentences. But they either would not, or could not communicate with me in this way. I pestered them about this one as well, as it seems perfectly plausible to me under the circumstances. But they have said that it is too dangerous to communicate in this way and they have told me off for being obstinate, all through the tarot cards.
I know that the next step should be for me to meditate, but I am simply too wound up to get there, because of work commitments and my general fear of getting through all of this psychic stuff.
My spirit guides have repeatedly reminded me about my sleep deprivation and my inability to move forward in a peaceful way and they have said so again now. Only now, they are making it clear that I need outside help. I asked them if I could Ms Dubois about it, as I am very aware that she is extremely busy and in response my spirit guides were very encouraging over it.
I now want to be a medium. My spirit guides have said that I have the potential and that I am due for a dramatic career change. I just don't know how to get there in a way that is not detrimental to my health.
It is also difficult to obtain absolute certainty about the significance of my tarot spreads and by whom, if at all, are they being controlled. In other words, there are times I am confident and others where I am plagued with doubt over it all, despite all the indicators.
Some advice from an experienced psychic would certainly be greatly appreciated. I really would appreciate some kind of a mentor to help me decipher between fantasy and reality, as not surprisingly with no conclusive scientific evidence out there, this field is so hard to pin down.