Dear Friends, Every time I see a child's smile, I am all at peace, but that is just who I am, even before my parents divorced (when I was 8) I felt there was a lack in my life and I even cried watching the sky and listening xmas music (even though it wasn't xmas) while my parents argued ALL the time. It felt like a splinter in my head, I was never allowed to be as I am, I hope I can be now!
Even when I was younger I didn't had parents who stood by me (still not... most of the time, because I didn't fit into their picture they had in mind for me). My father abused me mentally by saying "it's not good enough" even though I did as he asked me to, and my mother is too afraid to help me because of my father.
But whenever I am with children, I am not conscious about the lack or splinter-effect, I feel so at ease, but in these critical times I feel more frightened in what is coming, because of so many things hitting me at the same time, like people expecting me to do things that I know I can never handle (please help).
- I am a complete giver, not a taker at all!
- I am a child of light, as I wish to remain, without being afraid of negative influences, because I like to share what feels good!
- I love to remain protecting and treasuring every child in this world, even though my father thinks it's nuts, but I feel better watching over them, than I could ever feel when being in love...
- I wish for all the people to respect me as I am, and I would love for nothing more than to be as I desire to be, with great financial support and respect in accumulating knowledge to free from fear and to be with every child, as I am!
Thanks God Blesses.
Ps: All the friends that I have are children of all ages, no matter what age anyone is, I hold them in my heart, simply because it gives me peace (like coming home...) And makes me feel more alive than ever! Thanks