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Approximately two years ago I felt this compelling urge to read my bible, but with understanding. Not just reading as we do in church, but actually read it with wisdom and understanding, coming to my own conclusions. I wanted it to speak to me and I prayed for assistance in understanding its words. After much frustration, I started to pray to Jesus and God, talking to them as though they were standing next to me - much like you would if you were chatting with a friend.

That is when everything changed. It has been a few months now that I have been having actual experiences with the divine. When I started praying from my heart, instead of my mind, many wonderful things appeared to me. The divine comes to me as I pray in beautiful colors of aqua green, pinks, purples, and golds. It truly is beautiful. I cannot hear him, but I do feel his presence. Many times I have asked him things only to have the telephone ring not minutes later with my friend answering the question. Sometimes I will receive my answer in the next song played on the radio, or a page in a magazine. You really have to look and listen for his answers with an open mind. Sometimes this can be difficult, and I have yet to master it. How I would love to be able to actually talk to Jesus with words as we humans are so accustomed to! So far this is where I am in my journey. Where it goes next is up to me. My soul is slowly awakening, what a glorious feeling it is.

Hopefully my little story will be of help to others that are being awakened. God loves us all, and it is who we are right now that counts. Forgive yourself for what holds you back, as God is LOVE and forgives all. And as a friend once told me ACTIONS without FAITH are empty, as is FAITH without ACTIONS. Let us all be the change and learn to LOVE and think no longer with our minds, but with our HEARTS. In Jesus name I pray - AMEN.

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Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
12 years ago (2012-02-13)
Bonjour David!

Tu parles tres bien on francais! Ne lachez pas!

Thanks for writing back. I had looked up on google what that expression meant... So I knew before hand that it was a pilot's expression. I think I might have a clue about the vision. It came to me this morning actually. The other night I had been talking with Jesus about how I want to be healthy again. To be the athlete that I used to be. I was once a long distance runner and trained every day. That was long ago before I had a family, and now I am not so healthy... Almost having blackouts recently. I even had to permit myself to take a nap last week during the day because of the shakes I was experiencing. Thank goodness my EGO did not step in and say "How dare you be lazy and relax" LOL! Anyhow, I told him that I should go out and buy a new pair of running shoes- do something for me to get back on track and to love myself again. The room started to glow at that moment and for about 10 minutes he cleansed me (I think that was what he was doing). So maybe the vision means that by running down the path from now on my whole world will change and turn around? Sounds quite logical to me! Take time to love and to nurture yourself then you can love others all the more...

Have a wonderful day,
Onawingandaprayer (30 posts)
12 years ago (2012-02-13)
Hi Kathleen

"...keep the blue side up..."

This is an old expression from my airforce days, simply meaning keep the blue side (sky) upwards and you won't go wrong. ALong the lines of "...if the houses are getting bigger... Pull up!"

Mind you I can see your point as well, I will have to think about that one. I have experienced something very similar but taken from the viewpoint of an eagle soaring high above the Himilayas, that one comes back quite frequently, quite pleasant to be honest.

As for your vision, "walk" us through the context of your vision, you may find the answer while you are relating the story to the masses, just a thought...

"...marcher sur le bleu du côté de mon ami..."


PS HIgh school french was a long time ago, sorry!
Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
12 years ago (2012-02-12)
Hello David,

I couldn't help but notice that you have been ending your comments with the expression "keep the blue side up" which immediately struck a chord in me. I had a vision a few days ago while sitting in silence with my eyes closed conversing with God. In my vision I was walking as I usually do, along a multicolored path with a light shining at the end (I never reach the light no matter how long I walk though...). However, this time the vision was very different. As I was walking, suddenly the world turned upside down and I was now walking on the sky. I do not know what this means, or how to interpret it. Maybe you have some insight?

Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
13 years ago (2011-06-02)
Hello Everyone,

I have recently been dreaming persistently about the number 72, with many angels floating around. I looked up the meaning of number 72, and found out that these are the names of God. Can anyone give me a clue as to why I may be dreaming about this...
gysyblue (2 stories) (80 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-29)
Foundations - I really wish I knew. I see these beautiful colours as healing, but I am truly not sure. I imagine you probably feel warmth generated with the blue and the green. Keep extending your hand and you'll know in time.
Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-29)
Hi James,

Since I read your story this morning I have been thinking about it all day! You said Catherine and not Kathleen. On purpose I am gathering... I will have to ask for wisdom from God in understanding this little story. I get the moral of it all, however I think you are trying to get me to see a bigger picture! Was this the five year old girl that you were trying to get me to remember?
James, it was Emily who told me that you are who I thought you were... Maybe I got it wrong and she interpreted it that way.
I want to tell you that I do genuinely appreciate your guidance and will always be interested in all of your writings and stories/teachings. I look forward to your responses with anticipation!
Have a wonderful day
Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-29)
Hello Gysyblue,

How wonderful to know that he is healing me. Last night I reached out to Jesus and my hand was blue as well as green. Does green mean anything to you?
Thanks - Kathleen
James (10 stories) (151 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-29)

Still feeling lost in the wilderness?

A little girl was lost and alone in the forest as night fell.
"God I am so sorry for wandering away from my mom and dad, please help me!"

At that she started crying and curled up at the base of a tree. Trying not to sleep she struggled against the fear of being alone in the woods.

Before darkness fell an elderly couple came by and could only smile at what they saw.

"what are you doing here precious one!?"

Fighting back the sobs and tears she told them the story of how she had wandered off and how she prayed to God for help.

"Be not afraid precious one we will be with you tonight. We were going to set up our tent shortly anyway, so now is good time"

"but I must find mummy and daddy!"

"In the morning little one, first thing and we will take you to them"

So Catherine helped them set up the camp and she felt very happy to be with such nice people.

"Do you have any children?"

"Oh yes we have many abd sometimes they lose their way and get lost, feel all alone, but they always find their way back" answered the beautiful elderly lady.

"Who are you, what are your names?"

The elderly man answered " I am Joses and my lovely wife here is named Mary"

When the tent was erected Catherine went straight to sleep dreaming of her parents, dreaming of seeing them knowing she had been found again

In the morning the young wanderer awoke to the sounds of her parents desperate cries, but she was under the tree again and the tent was gone,

After being smothered with hugs and kisses and lots of tears from her mom and dad, Catherine told them what happened and they didn't really believe them.

She reached into her pocket and pulled out a note which simply said

"Sweet Catherine you were never lost"

Joseph Mary
gysyblue (2 stories) (80 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-28)
Kathleen as soon as I read about the blue light, it made me think of something my mother told me. She said that my grandma healed with her hands and with blue light.
James (10 stories) (151 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-28)

Jesus has been with you your whole life, you have just never noticed him before. Now you see him clearly, is probably a better way of making the statement.

As for your gift it is what you choose to do with it that is the question. Not what others think or want you to do with it, but what you choose to do with it.

As for othwers talking about the "evil one" I hear that all the time, I just nod andf laugh along with them, knowing full well they have no idea about my beliefs or what I am truly thinking about.

In my personal life and native tongue, my name is pronounced and spelt very differently, so no one would know me as James, therefore I can keep all my spirituality and faith within me and reveal it only to those who I feel would truly see it, understand it and be genuinly interested in it.

Faith and spirituality is a very personal and individual matter, it is for you alone to decide whom to share it with.

As for past lives, well there is much more to this universe than meets the eye my young friend...

" peace I leave you...

Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-27)

You say that he came to me this time because I made it clear that I wanted him in my life... Why was this time different from the other times I asked him to come into my life then? I have asked him before, but never felt that I had truly reached him.
Also, you said in the why me story that we are not special in any way. I know that I am not special - we are all equal in my eyes. However, concerning the gift that I have discovered of seeing angels, is this gift to be put to use for the benefit of others or is this just something for me to see and enjoy? This has been my question to God and Jesus, and I can't figure out the answer...
On other note, when I read the scriptures written by James in the New Testament I truly feel that it is YOU speaking to me... Is this my interpretation? You have mentioned that you are not all that you appear to be...
I will reach out for Jesus hand next time he appears to me. I have tried before but I never FEEL anything... Only SEE blue light radiate from my hand. Still an awesome sight!
I have felt VERY lost lately however. So many people who are unbelievers that I talk with interpret what I say as coming from evil. One person said that the evil one would appear to man before Jesus and she kind of scared me with that. She said it could be trickery no matter how beautiful it seems. And my husband is still quite upset with my God crap as he calls it... This all saddens me very deeply. I feel very alone and this website and you are my only source of feeling not so alone so far. I am definitly carrying my cross for believing! I am sure many others are feeling this too, how sad this makes me. I am really looking forward to the day that the truth is revealed to all mankind and I hope that I am here to be a witness to it! May God bless you always James.
James (10 stories) (151 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-27)
Hello Kathleen

Why get out of such a wonderful state, I am still in mine almost 2 years later and never want it to end!

Something that might be relevant for you to read is to have a look at my experience "Why Me!" I think it will help clear some of the fuzziness regarding why Jesus is visiting you.

By the way it is not for your forgiveness of sins, that was done by the Divine a long time ago (you needed to forgive yourself), it is because you have asked Yeshua to be part of your life, finally and very clearly.

He is not a hologram, he is very real, reach out and take his hand next time, feel the energy, feel the calming effect of his touch, feel the unconditional love he has for his children, for you!

Bless you dear Kathleen

Foundations (1 stories) (64 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-26)
Thank you James. I can't wait to get out of this "childlike" state of awakening! I know you mentioned patience to me... Jesus has visited me many times now - I speak with him through vision and he appears to me as a "hologram" (that is how I can best describe it). I actually see his face smiling at me. It is incredible. I have wondered many times why me of all people would he chose to visit and reveal himself. I am by no means perfect. I believe that he did come because through my many sins I truly seeked repentance and forgiveness. I needed his forgiveness to go on and I know now that I am forgiven. My son refers to me as a literal star that is shining in the sky and that the son (sun) loves me. Praise be to God for sending his son Jesus! Have a wonderful day James!
James (10 stories) (151 posts)
13 years ago (2011-04-26)

My precious friend, music to my ears

May the light that is you contiue to shine brightly


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