Approximately two years ago I felt this compelling urge to read my bible, but with understanding. Not just reading as we do in church, but actually read it with wisdom and understanding, coming to my own conclusions. I wanted it to speak to me and I prayed for assistance in understanding its words. After much frustration, I started to pray to Jesus and God, talking to them as though they were standing next to me - much like you would if you were chatting with a friend.
That is when everything changed. It has been a few months now that I have been having actual experiences with the divine. When I started praying from my heart, instead of my mind, many wonderful things appeared to me. The divine comes to me as I pray in beautiful colors of aqua green, pinks, purples, and golds. It truly is beautiful. I cannot hear him, but I do feel his presence. Many times I have asked him things only to have the telephone ring not minutes later with my friend answering the question. Sometimes I will receive my answer in the next song played on the radio, or a page in a magazine. You really have to look and listen for his answers with an open mind. Sometimes this can be difficult, and I have yet to master it. How I would love to be able to actually talk to Jesus with words as we humans are so accustomed to! So far this is where I am in my journey. Where it goes next is up to me. My soul is slowly awakening, what a glorious feeling it is.
Hopefully my little story will be of help to others that are being awakened. God loves us all, and it is who we are right now that counts. Forgive yourself for what holds you back, as God is LOVE and forgives all. And as a friend once told me ACTIONS without FAITH are empty, as is FAITH without ACTIONS. Let us all be the change and learn to LOVE and think no longer with our minds, but with our HEARTS. In Jesus name I pray - AMEN.