My name is Derek Radcliffe. I have had some spiritual experiences in my life, but one stands out.
I was in Barstow California in a cheap motel room with my dad. I was in my early 30s (I'm 36 now)
Anyways, I was wide awake, when all of the sudden there appeared a being of white light on a throne of white light. He came closer and said "I need you to come back twice." Then he put me in a place of tranquility. I asked "why can't we feel this way all the time?" He replied "We tried it before, it's unstable, it collapsed.". Then he left.
That is all that happened. I wonder who that being on the throne was. I guess it was God. I was in a really low place in life when he came. I couldn't see his face through the light.
My physical eyes weren't what saw him. I remember looking at something in the room, and those eyes couldn't see him. My spiritual eyes were opened for this visitation. It wasn't an out of body thing. I've never left my body. It was very real though.
The place of tranquility had characteristics to it. It was orangish color and light pink, and was swirling with soothing words and voices. And I could tell it was collapsing.
When he told me he needed me to come back twice I could see these blueish orbs of truth on a wheel beneath his throne.
I thought after he said it that he meant I would have to die and come back twice, but I'm still not sure what he meant.
I went back to that motel twice, hoping to see him, but I didn't.
Could the readers help me try to figure out what he meant by come back twice?