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A Feeling that Stayed with Me


This is very old, but I have never been able to share his with anyone and would love some feedback. This is the moment that changed my life. I am 29 now, I was about 17 at the time. It was the most pivotal moment of my life to date. My philosophies, attitudes, beliefs and actions have been based on it since. It is hard to relay in words, because words can not describe this feeling, but I will try.

I was laying in bed reading, one lazy day, when I had the time and luxury to do such things at leisure! It was midday, and I was in love with the quiet and nature and being all alone. Windows open, nothing but the sound of leaves blowing in the trees outside. When all of a sudden, totally engrossed in my book... I can't SAY! I was touched be an angel? Is the best I can say. I couldn't see anyone. But there was a definite presence that brought me a gift.

Like love itself reached out and gave me the biggest hug ever. When people speak of white light, if I could see it, I bet it would have been blinding in the room around me. I sat up and put the book down. Literally looking around. And all I could think, in stunned amazement is, "Where is this coming from?". "Who is there..." Immediately followed by the knowledge, not the thought, but the firm and ever since, unshakable knowledge that everything would always be alright! Not just that moment, a "for now", but for infinity. Then it was gone, the presence, not the feeling of course.

Can you even imagine feeling that? Could you imagine being given the gift that allowed you never to doubt yourself ever again, because something other then you had reassured you so deeply that forever will always be just as perfect as it can? It afforded me the ability to trust in my future and let things happen, not freaking out over issues that "should" be concerning. Since that day, as long as I remembered these things, I want for nothing. All I simply have to do, is have a thought in my mind and a request in my heart and I always get what I want. Need.

Has anyone else ever had anything like this happen? I have never been able to share this really, and have it understood. I suppose it doesn't matter, I am just so curious!

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bphutchins89 (1 stories) (6 posts)
11 years ago (2013-08-09)
Hi, my experience will probably soon be published but it is somewhat similar to yours. It happened a long time ago and I think I ended up on this site to sort of bring it back. It is nice to know that others have had similar experiences. I have thought of it and the other experiences I had after it for years now and I could not offer you a rational, by that I mean worldly, explanation for them. But they are real and valid and I can tell you that I have not feared death ever since that first one happened
Well Wisher (guest)
14 years ago (2010-04-04)
Dear Mystery2me.

What a beautiful experience to have had.

Allah /GOD is everywhere... And his angels are always near to us.

During this moment you were probably not thinking but feeling and being appreciative of what you have.

You opened your heart to unconditional love.

This is why you were able to feel Allah /GOD's presence or that of his angels... When we become receptive.

I also agree with what someone else has said here,

As we get nearer to the 'Day of Judgement' Allah/GOD's presence will be felt more and more in such experiences but only by those who believe in him and have faith.
PsiKid (2 stories) (15 posts)
15 years ago (2009-06-12)
I've experienced this before, when I was seventeen as well. After that first experience I've been experiencing this more and more often. What you experienced was spiritual awakening or enlightenment. Your angle is here to guide to that. That is it's purpose: to guide you to remember who you are, and why you are here. Knowing that everything is going to be alright, is the greatest feeling ever! Love is the greatest feeling ever--and it is a gift!
geehutch (1 stories) (3 posts)
15 years ago (2009-04-03)
This happened to me too! I know exactly what you are trying to describe, words just don't do justice though, do they? It's that feeling that grace just comes over you and embraces you to your very core, your soul, and it definately leaves a lasting impression.
katykamu (guest)
15 years ago (2009-01-04)
I too had the feeling that mystey2me and others have described here. I also believe now it was a gift from angels or them trying to communicate with me in some way. I was 16 and at a very difficult time in my life, I had lost faith and hope. I was in Paris on an exchange living with a french family. At the time I think staying abroad and not speaking the language well added to my lonliness and feelings of isolation.

One day we had been walking around hot, busy paris all day and decided to visit Sacre Coure. Sacre Coure is an amazing white cathedral. I thought it would be like ne other cathedral and so wasn't expecting much.

When I walked inside an unearthly silence engulffed me and the interior of the building seemed so white and pure. At the exact same time I was overwhelmed by a feeling of complete inner peace and unconditional love from what felt like an external force. And I knew in that moment, as if something or someone was telling me, that everything would be alright. I just stood there for a bit and walked round amazed by the feeling. I truely felt at one with everything- myself, nature, the universe, humanity, god. Yet at the time I wasn't thinking where is this feeling coming from, is it from god or something else. I was simply engulffed in the moment.

The feeling passed when my french pen pal spoke to me about something. And afterwards I sat on the pews in the middle of the cathedral and looked up. Sculped in pure white stone of some kind were four angels looking down me. Today I believe this experience was angels sending me a message.
Anonymous (guest)
15 years ago (2008-12-21)
Oh lord, I wonder how I am going to pay. No one has given me a second chance but you did. You have paved the way now so I can walk talk again. I don't want to leave your shelter now. I don't know how to thank you that is why I came here. You are my everything. I love you may you all be blessed too
Tiffany (guest)
15 years ago (2008-12-18)
Hi! I'm 18 almost 19 now, and an experience that happened when I was 17 and a half was truly amazing and opened my eyes. It happened on my trip to Vietnam. What happened was that I felt a powerful flow of energy through my body and mind, and I experienced an almost overwhelming surge of love. But I didn't recogize it as God's love. I recognized it as my mother's love. It was like a love greater than I could imagine--a love so great that it opened my eyes, and immediately I was a lot wiser. I've even reached that point where it's like... I didn't think my mom was a good parent, but I...loved her. It's just that I understood at that moment. It was weird, because I used to be so mad at her --but I totally forgave her and wanted her to feel loved like she deserves. I mean people are flawed, and they're not perfect--but somehow, it's our responsibility to rise past that and love wholeheartedly despite every else. Pain does help guide us to try to understand and eventually build up our wisdom to a point where all we see in ourselves is love. It is then that it doesn't matter that the person hurt us, because we're above it. The truth is that everyone deserves to be loved despite imperfections and flaws. That was basically the big lesson learned. Because of that great experience I was able to rise from the depths of the abyss and learn some wonderful life lesson beyond comprehension... Awestruck and touched.
Someone who knows why (guest)
16 years ago (2008-11-15)
I was surfing the net and I ran across this page. I don't know if anyone will ever see this, but if you do, and you wonder why these things happen, I know from whence they come and why. You may think it strange that someone would know but I do, many others also know. It is possible to understand things like this, and what's more, it doesn't have to be a once in a lifetime experience. That peaceful feeling can stay with you everyday of your life. It is possible to know God. You just have to know where to look. Things like this have happened to me more times than I could ever count, and I am so happy! I know the truth! If you start looking you will find it too.
Claudia (guest)
16 years ago (2008-10-24)
I had an experience like yours a few years back. It's funny because I can not remember exactly how long but do remember where I was driving to and the exact location when it happened. I have told my story to very few of my family members and friends. I think about the feeling all the time and always wonder why me. How did I get chosen to get this gift (yes, that is what I call it) from God. What makes me so special to feel this powerful love and peace knowing not everyone will have this experience? I do look for answers and know I should not. I need to not question this gift.
I was on my way to a relative's baby shower being the only one in my car. I was going to meet my mother and sisters there. I wasn't feeling down on life but not happy about it either. I was just in a blah mood. Both my husband and I have ex's we have to deal with because we both have a child with the ex's. At that time my husband and I were getting so much grief from both of them and I was pretty much just fed up with them. That explains my blah mood. I was driving down a county road when all of a sudden it just hit me. Like you said in your story, the feeling that you get is really unexplainable. I felt so much love. A peace kind of love. I felt warm, happy, joy, peaceful with everyone and everything. It was really quite, a peaceful quite and I felt like I was driving in slow motion. Even though I had a whole family that I love dearly, the only 2 people I thought about were the 2 people giving me grief. I thought about them and I didn't feel anger, hate, dislike towards them. I felt sad for them. I felt love for them and at the same time sadness for them. I was actually feeling their loneliness. The feeling left me about 5 minutes later. I remember speaking saying, "come back, don't go." I didn't want it to go away. I wanted to stay with it. Once it was gone and I came back to reality as I call it. It dawned on me that the feeling I had was a presence. I want to believe that it was God hugging me. Giving me a gift, a gift that will last me until I go home with him. I know how it feels to be with him and can't wait to have that peace again.
Dick (guest)
16 years ago (2008-04-23)
Dipped in Grace

"I want to know what love is" "higher and higher" played the radio. My seven thirty wake up call. As my radio awoke me, I heard this favorite Air Supply song. Little did I know this would be my theme song for the next week.

As I awoke that day, I thought,boy,what a great day. It was one of those days where you just awoke felling great. Everything felt perfect with the world.

As I proceeded throughout the day, that feeling just remained. It was like the sky was bluer, and the sun was brighter. It was a grounded feeling. It felt as though I was just in sync with the entire world.

My normal drive to work was usually an impatient rush as best. But is was much different today. I found myself going about 10 miles under the speed limit. Why... I didn't know. I just felt that way.

As I came home for my noontime run, I remember thinking how sound I could sleep in a back yard hammock. This though of quietness and peace penetrated my mind. I was starting to realize something was different today. This feeling was more than just a good feeling day.

As I came home from work, this incredible feeing persisted. Not shattered by the full days work, I actually felt the full effect of this feeling that I wasn't quite sure how to define. What was it I was feeing?
Why did I feel so good, so peaceful, so connected to the world.

I thought of my nephew, and how much I loved him. I thought that if everyone in the world felt the way I did at that time, there would be no more wars. Everyone would be at peace. I though about that I better look twice before walking across the street because I didn't want this feeling to go away. I didn't know what I was experiencing, but I knew I wanted to continuing feeling this way.

As I awoke the second day, this feeling remained. The same feeling, same peace, same connectedness. I began to wonder. What was I experiencing. I felt love for everything and everyone. If felt like what you feel like when you in love with someone, only stronger. But there was a difference. This feeling was not based on an expectation of getting anything back in return. Relationship love always wants and requires some type of favor in return. This feeling wanted nothing in return. It was a feeling of pure love toward others. This love feeling was a one way street. It was the feeling of purely loving another for no reason other than to love them.

I knew I was experiencing something I had never felt before. What was it? Then it donned on me. It was Pure love. God's love. What the Bible calls Agape love. That which is given by God. Undeserving love. Selfless love. Perfect love. Scripture tells us that the source of Christian Love is God. (First John 4;8). The apostle Paul wrote of the hope we have in sharing the glory of God and declaring that this hope does not disappoint us, because our hearts have been filled with God's love through His giving to us the Holy Spirit (Rom 5:5). I thought that it had to be God's love because it was so blissful, and was based on my love for others not their love for me. It was love, joy, and peace all wrapped into one feeling.

This feeling lasted an entire week. Each day this feeling faded a little bit. I still felt it, but the intensity was less. It was like if you got dipped in a pool of water, and then got out and started to dry. Each day that passed for a week this incredible feeling although still there, started to fade. At then end of ten days, I was left with it's memory. But a memory I will never, ever forget.

Now I know what is possible. Now I have a glimpse of God's love. Now I have a know what I want. Now I know what I can expect if I open myself fully to God's Spirit inside of me, and put away the flesh. I have a goal. I don't know if I will ever be blessed in this lifetime with such a dynamic experience as this experience some 20 years ago, but I now have a glimpse of what to expect in God's glory.
jewels (guest)
16 years ago (2008-04-22)
I too have had spiritual experiences. From God. I just stumbled upon this website, and have read many posts.
I have two stories to share, for now, first was when I was 7. My sister and I (she was 11) took our new bikes to the swimming pool. Alone for the first time. Momma said "make sure you are home before dark"... Well, we were on our way home, cutting close to dark, when all of a sudden my sister had a flat tire. For some reason we were terrified. It was dark by now, and I started crying, because there was a puncture in her tire. We didn't know what to do. We were scared, and old man appeared out of nowhere. A very warm feeling came across us. He said hello, asked us if everything is ok, we told him about the tire, we still had a ways to go and didn't know what to do. This was in the 70's. He look at the tire and with a smile, spit on his finger, touched the tire... And I know this sounds crazy, but the tire was fixed air and all. We were astonished, we looked up to say thank you, and he was gone. We looked down an alley, he was nowhere to be found. We never really spoke about it until one holiday not too long ago. Still amazed. Definetly an angel.

Another experience, which is very personal to me, and this is the perfect place to finally share it. When I was 16 years old, I had the opportunity to live with my father, and get to know him for the first time. We always had correspondance on birthdays, and letters when I would write him. But that was the extent of my relationship with him. We lived in Germany, and he was in the USA. Well, on getting to know him, which mind you in the short 3mths I feel like I have learned soo much from him. We would talk all day, watch movies, touch every subject you can imagine. He tought me to drive, etc. My father was dying though. He had been ill for a long time. Since he had been to Vietnam and caught malaria. Well, he was diagnosed with emphysemia... He had it for 8 years or so already before I stayed with him. We touched on the subject of God. He was telling me an experience of the ouija. I then asked him, don't you believe in God? He said no, I believe there is something out there, but not sure. So, I asked him,... When you pass away daddy, and I ask you for a sign, will you show me a sign... And then well know for sure. He said ok... He passed 2 years later. Never thought of that conversation we had until 12 years later, when I for the first time in my life, questioned if there was a God. Obviously, was a very bad time. Then through tears, and fear, I remembered our conversation, I was laying outside on top of my vehicle, on a summer night. Looking in the sky. And asked, Daddy if you are out there, please show me a sign. And he did, right then and there. The brightest light you can imagine almost blinding me twinkled. It wasn't a natural light it was different. Hard to explain. Just believe me please. So, the next day I was explaining the story to my 2 young boys, and they asked if we could do the same that night. Thinking ok. But, you still have to believe even if we do not see a sign. Maybe hes busy ok? They said 'ok'. Well, at night we stood outside, I'm crying now just thinking about this, I do hope I am not rambling... And I said, daddy, if you are not busy would you please show the boys a sign... And then immediately after the question was a shooting star. It had changed my boys forever. And forever melts my heart. My dad, and God, are here alway with me.
Thank you for you're time, it feels good to share and experience it again. God bless you all...
pat (guest)
16 years ago (2007-12-27)
the experience you described felt real to me. But that I mean I could feel the same energy as you described while I read your words.

about 20 years ago I experienced that energy on a grand scale, on every level of my being, all at once. It happened while I was out walking. Suddenly everything around me was suddenly crystal clear and there was a golden glow to everything. I felt a powerful flow of energy through my body and mind and I experienced an almost overwhelming surge of love, joy and a sense of connectedness to everything flowing within me and around me. I loved everything I saw powerfully and felt powerfully loved in return. It was a glorious experience and an enlightening one because I was filled with 'sense' at the same time that I was being filled with all that love and joy and life. It was as if I suddenly understood everything, that that energy that was flowing through me was source of all intelligence, life and understanding and that I was a part of it as was everything other form of being in the universe a part of it. A self -sense of each individual form of being was connected to every other form of being in this greater energy which was really just the combined sense of all the individual self senses which comprised it as well as a sense of itself in its combined form--a 'we' sense. I realized that that energy flowing through me was what we call 'god' in this world--but it wasn't a separate form of being, something outside and above us. It was 'us', an extension of the self-sense of each of us individually and combined into a whole. And I was filled with intricate understanding of how it all worked and how everything (except our everyday conscious self awarenesses) is connected to everything else all the time. That we have a personal sense of ourselves as individuals, ie 'me', as well as a personal sense of everything and everyone else, ie 'we' and we each feel the personal experience of all the other 'selves' all the time and on that plane of reality, everything is good for each individual 'self' as well as for the greater self 'we', because if any self felt pain, every other self would feel it too and so every individual self as well as the whole self 'we' made sure that they didn't act in a way that would cause pain to anything else but instead, acted only in ways that were good for each and every other self as well as for the 'we' and so on this plane of reality everything was all good and joyous all the time for everyone. The only reason that this world is not good for many is that we are cut off from 'feeling' the pain and joy of others. We don't understand that you can't feel good or live a good life if you cause pain or decrease the joy and good feelings of other things. So we are blocked from this 'all good' world. We are left with this world where pain and suffering and better, worse, and evil prevail; a world which is probably just an ugly illusion in which we are somehow trapped.
The good feelings I was experiencing were huge and powerful and I realized I was experiencing what was really 'paradise' or 'heaven' and I also realized that heaven or paradise was not a place people went to went to when they died, but that it existed right now, right here, right under our noses and that we should be living there for our whole lives. I felt this very very certainly and surely.

i don't know how long the experienced lasted. It seemed like a long time but it could have been less than a minute. I was re-vitalized afterwards, full of energy and vitality. People I saw afterwards said I was glowing somehow.

my life changed dramatically after that experience. What I personally experienced gave me a way to understand the world and my place in it. It gave me a 'way to live', a real moral code to live by. It gave me a real path to follow and by following it over the years I have wholly experienced the 'we' energy many times and I have also expanded my everyday perceptual awareness so that I can perceptually appreciate and sensationally connect with the emotional and other living energies of other people and things around me. As I feel more and more connected, I experience more and more of the love and joy I felt during my first, 'enormous' experience of it. My life has become fuller and more filled with love and joy. It's also been more fun-i've experienced so many new and different connections and learned so many new, exciting things. I feel very lucky to be here as I am today.

I think its presence is growing; I think more and more of that energy flows now into our world. I could feel its presence in many of the personal experiences written on the cite. I can feel it in so many people and things I encounter in my life. It seems that it's really here now for all of us everywhere, we have only to open ourselves and enjoy it.

i have experienced that a truly good 'god' exists--one that doesn't demand worship or sacrifice or ritual--a flow of physical energy that is 'we' and that is all love, all good, all joy, and all life. All we have to do is to open ourselves so that we can unconditionally accept and express that flow of love and joy and life that is right here, everywhere around us. It's not just an 'idea' or some other immaterial form of being--the 'we' is a real physical energy you can feel all over your body and all through your body and it's powerful enough to knock you off a chair, albeit, gently. So, 'love' is real--a real palpable physical energy you can 'hold' (loosely) in your hand and that can envelop you in its 'hand'. And love is the same thing as joy and as life and as god and as we and as me and there is really nothing else that matters.
the more people that find the way to connect themselves, the easier it will be for others. And when everyone is connected it will be all good for us all and we can get on with living our all good and eternal lives in wonderful ways we will never be able to imagine.

we can't imagine eternal life because the world of that energy hasn't decided things that far into the future. The world of that energy is a continually creative world--it exists and continues to exist by creating new good ways or patterns for itself. Every living thing is unique and thereby increases the love, joy and life of that world. Creation is an ongoing process--is 'the' ongoing process, without beginning or end-- and so is life.
HESTER (guest)
16 years ago (2007-12-25)
I have had many experiences like youself, and at time it as brought me to tears. Not because I felt upset but like you say totally loved and a feeling of missing home, meaning not hear on earth but with love ones on the other side, 'sounds strange I no' but it's true. I never feel alone and have become quite spiritual. I feel that the power of pray can bring that feeling if you mean it with your heart. Everyone can feel this love you just need to believe and have faith it's the most loving feeling. I have also been experiencing other things, seeing orbs and feeling the presense of love ones around me, and I defo believe in Angels when I was six years old, I just wanted to die. A man spoke to me very clearly and told me I was going to be okay. I just wish I didn't run away, but no he has been with me all this time.
David (guest)
16 years ago (2007-11-28)
wow! I've never felt anything that strong. I have however received that feeling/sense of hope when things were not going right in my life and it would surprisingly happen after moments of deja voux. Like "everything is going to be alright, don't worry, just keep at it". So it worked because it kept me hopeful. And everything is okay now, better than I could've dreamed. I realize now that God had been speaking to me all this time even when I wasn't a believer.
Lance (guest)
16 years ago (2007-11-27)
Thank you for sharing your story. I have had a similar experience. I had just gone through a terrible divorce and was feeling grief-stricken and very depressed. I had turned to God/Spirit for comfort. After a while, when I started to get better, I had the most wonderful experience. Gradually, feelings of love and joy grew in me until I was completely overcome by them. I had never felt anything quite like it before or since. Words really can't fully describe it. My heart was in a state of ecstasy and it was overflowing with a love so powerful I thought my heart would burst. It gradually faded over time, but it is something I have never forgotten. I went from an intellectual belief in God to a knowingness of God's reality deep in my heart. I now move through life with a great deal less fear and a lot more trust in a power greater than myself. I still have my trials and tribulations, but God always gets me through. Blessings and Peace to all.
Martin (29 posts) mod
17 years ago (2007-10-27)
Hi Mystery2me, thanks for the story, it's really inspiring. Spiritual experiences seem to be a rare thing, and you had a tremendously transformative one. I'm not sure what happened, I guess it could be divine grace since it was given to you without any effort on your part (or was it?). Maybe it is the result of a very positive karma due to good actions, in this life or previous ones. It's hard to know, but I'm glad it happened! You must be wondering what the craziness is all about when you observe people worrying silly every day, running in circles... But to have an experience that sticks with you like that, well, it's not an experience anymore, it's a transformation. I hope other people with the same story will find yours. Maybe there is a purpose also for your change that will reveal itself in the future.
Just me - a (guest)
17 years ago (2007-10-27)
I never had anything like this happen to me, but while reading about your experience, it felt like it happened to me also. So well written! I think that you were given a present that couldn't have been greater or more full of mercy.
I do really hope for you that you can keep that feeling to your heart forever! Best wishes, Rebecca

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