This is very old, but I have never been able to share his with anyone and would love some feedback. This is the moment that changed my life. I am 29 now, I was about 17 at the time. It was the most pivotal moment of my life to date. My philosophies, attitudes, beliefs and actions have been based on it since. It is hard to relay in words, because words can not describe this feeling, but I will try.
I was laying in bed reading, one lazy day, when I had the time and luxury to do such things at leisure! It was midday, and I was in love with the quiet and nature and being all alone. Windows open, nothing but the sound of leaves blowing in the trees outside. When all of a sudden, totally engrossed in my book... I can't SAY! I was touched be an angel? Is the best I can say. I couldn't see anyone. But there was a definite presence that brought me a gift.
Like love itself reached out and gave me the biggest hug ever. When people speak of white light, if I could see it, I bet it would have been blinding in the room around me. I sat up and put the book down. Literally looking around. And all I could think, in stunned amazement is, "Where is this coming from?". "Who is there..." Immediately followed by the knowledge, not the thought, but the firm and ever since, unshakable knowledge that everything would always be alright! Not just that moment, a "for now", but for infinity. Then it was gone, the presence, not the feeling of course.
Can you even imagine feeling that? Could you imagine being given the gift that allowed you never to doubt yourself ever again, because something other then you had reassured you so deeply that forever will always be just as perfect as it can? It afforded me the ability to trust in my future and let things happen, not freaking out over issues that "should" be concerning. Since that day, as long as I remembered these things, I want for nothing. All I simply have to do, is have a thought in my mind and a request in my heart and I always get what I want. Need.
Has anyone else ever had anything like this happen? I have never been able to share this really, and have it understood. I suppose it doesn't matter, I am just so curious!