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Spiritually Dead


I was brought up in a world that had no religion or any kind of spirituality. I just celebrated 19 years of recovery from drugs and Alcohol. Which I believe closed all the doors for any spirituality or religious awareness or growth. About 20 years ago after I received my 4th D.W.I. I was very devastated with life, I just had enough! So as I was thinking once again about ending my life. The first time was with a 38 revolver and one bullet in the chamber. I didn't see it then but I see it all now, thoughts of pills, alcohol abuse, running into a parked or abandoned car on the freeway.

Then it came one night the thought of a 20 gauge shotgun to my head that would do it. Now I come with a lot of baggage and a military training background that would scare you to death with some of the things I had to be trained for. U.S.M.C. Oh Raah! That night, in a book called Power For Living which a christian landlord gave me a year before, it had a paragraph in there, now I never looked in this book until that night, it said a prayer like this:

"My Creator I have been living my life, my way, I ask that you take my life and do with it what you will."

And that is when it happened. I have 3 brothers and 3 sisters and at that time my mother and father were still alive. All 8 of them came in a slight vision in the outer room of this wretched apartment I was living in at the time. After this, I begin to look around the room behind me and started to think. Who will clean up my mess. Now I don't know what suicidal people think of at this time, but it wasn't what I wanted in my head.

I somehow made it through this night and the next morning I walked out of this apartment and nature unfolded before me. I became more aware of things I never have seen before. Then I found God through my landlord who introduced me to my wife of 18 years and 7 months. I had to go deeper on this spiritual journey which today involves the Holy Trinity. The Father, Son, and Holy Spirit. In a world so confused with this christianity and religion. I am glad I found my savior and Lord Jesus Christ and I am able to walk in His Spirit today. Christian science? Mohamed? Buddha? Agnostics? Atheist? And all those SEEKING, I have no problem with, but to them all I stand on the living word of God (BIBLE) and I am sure glad that God picked my Soul to carry His message. Our Father in Heaven Hallowed be Thy Name. And please deliver us from The evil one (devil) Thy kingdom come thy will be done on earth as it is in Heaven.

Thank you for allowing me to share just a little of my life with you all. Jesus loves me this, I know for the Bible tells me so. Little ones here below, they are weak but he is strong. Yes Jesus loves me, yes Jesus loves me. The bible tells me so. You want peace joy love and understanding, do what I did, trust God and He will show you things you never before thought of.

At age 27, He restored me to sanity I am now 46 years old and He continues to use me to help others.

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Thomas (guest)
15 years ago (2008-09-25)
The Father The Son and The holy Spirit (GHOST).Once again I need to comment, There is a lot of stuff being put out today. STUFF! I want to say for the record STOP! God is our Father and Jesus Christ is Our Lord and Savior, The Holy Spirit is are last hope for Eternity. Yes Eternity there is life after death And the the same POWER THe (Holy Ghost) thatraised Jesus from the grave. One day will raise (US) the church to the Heights if we desire it. Yes it is our choice. The Bible is the TRUTH Do Not play with the Holy Scriptures. God was in the Old Testament then left, Jesus was in the New Testament then left. But they sent a comforter the Holy Spirit! He is still here on earth so let's work with that for now. See if we can keep THE HOLY Spirit here so we can help save some of these lost souls. Father God I pray a sinner saved by your grace a soul once lost in the darkness now walks in the light of Jesus Christ. Have mercy on me, forgive them Father for they know not what they are doing. AMEN.AMEN. Peace on earth and good will towards all men. Tom Zepp All knowledge is received from the Holy Ghost. Leaning not on my understanding, but every word that peceeds from The holy Bible.
Flutterofwings (17 stories) (110 posts)
16 years ago (2008-02-19)
God does work in mysterious ways. He has done that many times in my life. Praise the Lord.
Thomas (1 stories) (4 posts)
16 years ago (2008-02-16)
Flutterofwings I want to Thank You for your comment. I was put in a mental ward many times, the devil tried to take my mind. But he could not because I(we)are children of God and HE won't allow this to happen. (GOD) Like you I saw my worth, my experience in life showed me how to help others. There were Tenagers there with thoughts and some actions of SUICIDE. And elderly people who were hearing multible voices in their heads. God worked through me to give help to many. Three weeks later I was discharge. What an experience to have gone through. Only by HIS grace and Mercy do I repeat this. I allow God to work through me now. Thank You 😊
Flutterofwings (17 stories) (110 posts)
16 years ago (2008-01-27)
I thought of suicide before and when I did the faces of my two children came into view and I thought " what will happen to them?" and I just could not do it. I am glad as I am now in my life I feel where I am suppose to be "helping others".
Thomas (1 stories) (4 posts)
16 years ago (2008-01-08)
Suicide is not the answer, A relationship with God the Father, Jesus Christ the Son, and The Holy Spirit. There is no greater suffering then what Jesus done for us. Everthing that I have been through in life is nothing compared to what Jesus did For US! 😆 ❤

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