Hey readers, my name is Morgan. I'm 20 years old. I have a few things that I'm a little worried about, hoping that someone might read, understand and maybe know what I'm going through. I got into spirituality around two years ago when I had my first awakening to the universal mind and I have been a earnest believer and meditater ever since.
I don't work or go to school and I'm a little anti-social around the edges so I spend most of my time alone either reading up on spiritual matters or sitting back and getting little tastes of pearl harbor. But the past few months have been a little different than usual.
3 or 4 weeks ago I had a very relevant dream about escaping from a run down prison and making it on a balcony high above the city and the weeks that followed were very peculiar. I felt the beginning stages of the third eye activation and when it started bulging out from in between my eyebrows I started working on my crown chakra. Surprisingly it opened really fast and it started feeling like I had carpet burn on the top of my head.
That same night I decided to try and push it abit further with an intense urge to get out I lay in my bed overcome by a rare and tremendous silence, a heavy flow of energy on my forehead and top of head, I felt a blissful light flowing through my whole body and a sensuality that I can't explain. When I started to come back to my senses I felt an unwavering presence and a deep, peaceful acceptance but strangely I also felt the right side of my face kind of cave in a bit, a little notch in my eye socket. Normal?
I went to get something to drink, all the while dismissing every thought that sprung up into the vacuum on my forehead, and soon as I made it in the kitchen I felt very weak and weary so I sat on the floor. Then something happened. A kind of epileptic fit. I blanked out for a couple seconds and as soon as I woke up I realized two things. I had complete control over my mind and I had pissed myself. LoL. I haven't been the same since. Ever since I have been able to open my third eye and crown chakra, fairly easily, but the problem is sometimes I can't close them. This worries me. It's to the point where I'll start sweating and shivering randomly.
I was wondering if this is normal and if it isn't could it be because I only know how to activate the top two chakras? I was also wondering if its normal that I'm having trouble following through with my thoughts, as soon as a thought comes up I'm aware that it is my measuring ego so it is automatically dismissed. Normal? Please, someone, its getting urgent... Thank you