All of my life, I have been apprehensive about putting my hands on people. I never made a conscious note of it, just a weird apprehension I have.
First of all, please let me explain that I am a very level-headed person, and my natural reaction is to balk at the following, but repetition of results has me wondering.
The first experience was when my son's fish became sick. For some bizarre reason I had the compulsion (when no one was looking) to put my hands close to the tank (not ON the tank, for some reason, I did not want to make physical contact, just hover an inch or so above). I did this over and over when the fish became sick, and the fish didn't become a "floater" for many months. I eventually decided that (if for some crazy reason I was actually responsible for what was happening) the fish just needed to be let go, so I quit, and the fish passed on.
In secret, I have tried the above with ailing cats, small dogs, small animals, that belong to myself and to relatives and friends. This (or coincidence) has brought similar results to the animals.
I finally confided in my husband about this, and he is very open-minded and supportive, but we speak to no one about it. He has trouble with his back, and I have brought him relief by doing the above. I have occasionally used it on my kids when they are asleep for colds, etc.
Can anyone give me some perspective as to what may be going on here?
Note: Over the past 8 years or so, my belief system has changed more to what I will call a "Buddhist-like" view of the world, but not necessarily congruent with the above experiences.