After a day of bearing some unusually heavy mental suffering, I took a hot shower and lay in my bed. My breathing became very deliberate and slow, almost without my realizing it. I had this sensation of rising above my bed in a fetal position. This feeling that can only be described as fire started to come out of my mouth.
Very quickly, this fire enveloped me and I experienced huge waves of fire emanating from the whole length of my body. These waves undulated to where I perceived as very large distances, enveloping the greater part of my block and beyond. Hard to tell, as I have trouble judging distance. It was uncontrollable. Simultaneously, I felt the pulse of my intestines or gut, more intense than I've ever felt.
The feeling that this fire rose up in me was love. The fire, somehow, represented love to me, and it spewed forth in such a powerful manner, that I had to write it here in an effort to understand what has happened to me. A baptism of sorts? A natural connection to the Spiritual fire within me? I'm not sure what to make of it, but when it was over, I emerged spent, but refreshed and strengthened, as if recharged for the next round. This has never happened to me before. Wow.
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