I am a young woman currently undergoing a rapid spiritual transformation which began approximately three weeks prior to the publication of this story.
Three weeks ago I was in a terrible place in my life. I was in a state of despair over a failed romantic relationship, and from cutting off all ties with my sociopathic father. I was jobless, broke, and felt like I had failed at life.
One day in early March of 2015, I noticed that when I looked in the mirror I looked healthier and more beautiful than I'd ever looked in my life. I don't mean beautiful in a 'hot' or sexy sort of way but in a way that made me look angelic. Up to this point I had been looking very haggard despite my youth, like I hadn't slept or smiled in months. But now, all the color had returned to my cheeks and I looked like I was in love. I felt like it, too. I had a tightness in my chest and my heart was pounding with pure, overwhelming love for humanity. Even people I had previously disliked or even hated (for good reason) I wanted to love and forgive. I had prayed for a way to stop judging those whom I felt so wronged by, and my prayers were definitely answered. I felt like I was glowing. My eyes were effected as well, everything looked so bright that I had to narrow my eyes to take it all in. I felt like there was a wisdom behind my eyes, for lack of a better explanation. I cannot put that feeling into words, but after researching the phenomena of a heart chakra opening, I am now convinced that this is what happened to me.
Days prior to this event I didn't care at all about my health. I ate meat, junk food, soda like it was going out of style. Suddenly I had the overwhelming sense that I must become a vegan right now. You have to understand that even a few weeks ago, I thought veganism was foolish. All of a sudden I'm up until 5 am researching the pineal gland and the evils of fluoridated water and factory farms. I have always been interested in religion and philosophy, even when I was a child, but I never thought I could have such an awakening without meditation or something guiding me along. I just remember telling God as a young girl that I would do anything he ever wanted of me no matter the cost.
I suppose the strangest thing that has come of this so far is the ease at which I am able to see visions when I meditate. I have also heard a strange language being spoken into my left ear by a male voice, but I have not met or spoken to a spirit guide at all. At least I we haven't been formally introduced... I do not meditate enough because I am a bit apprehensive. I admit that I am worried of what might be out there, as I have had some frightening sleep paralysis lately and my mother has been complaining of nightmares that I feel I may somehow be a part of. Since this is all happening to suddenly, I am afraid of where to turn and how to operate. I can't tell anyone about the voice or the visions without appearing insane. Any advice would be appreciated.