Everything began when I was a child between the age 5 to 7. Since I was a child I have seen things as well as attacked by the spirits in my dreams and in the physical world. Things have gotten so bad that people around me have gotten hurt as well. Now things have gotten so bad that I have attacked every single day sometimes more than once for almost a month straight. The attacks began again in September of this year so I began looking for help again hoping maybe I will finally become free from everything going on. While looking for help as well as randomly people have said very very sweet things about me and who God made me and about how I am special in some kind of way. I personally do not see anything special about me I honestly less than but the things they have said make me wonder who I really am. I have always wondered who I was since I was a child but know there may be more to me than what I ever thought.
It began one day when I was sitting in a Walmart subway waiting for my boyfriend to get himself a sandwich. Just then a woman came up to me and she said that my light was very bright and God wanted to tell me something. She was saying how I am his light and a couple of other things that I can not remember but I believe it involved me being careful with people I trust or I am unsure it was almost a year ago when this happened.
Fast forward to September I found a church that I started going to for a few weeks. I found the pastor through another pastor who was asked to help me with everything going on. When I and the pastor talked on the phone it was like he could really see right through me. He said things that have truly been on my heart for so long that really hurt me. He really did help me but then I became a little confused. The pastor said that I was meant to do something and he was honored to talk to me and he said such very nice things that I still need to pray over because I do not know who I am or who God made me. Alongside meeting the pastor in one of the groups, I was in I also meet two other women.
The first woman I meet has gone through a lot of the same things I have gone through. She has told me that I have a special gift just like she does though I am clouded right now. She says once the evil spiritual things are gone I will finally be able to be who God wants me to be.
The last woman I meet in one of the groups I was in from the start called me an earth angel. It all began when I posted in one of the groups I was in and she said I was an earth angel just like she was. I can admit I always have wished and dreamed that I was more than just a human. I never truly have been happy being who I am and finally, I thought that maybe this is why I was so unhappy as well as my dreams of being more than I ever thought I could be. Maybe I am naïve and maybe I think too much about fantasy's but learning that this could be real somehow gives me hope. I honestly still do not know who I am or why I keep being told these amazing things that I do not know about myself. I just have to keep praying and hoping God can someday tell me who I am and who I will become someday. Thank you for reading my story.
But what is your shiat?
You have to have created a false self to be looking for your true self aye
Maybe your false self is what was responsible for your shiat
Probably an abuser in early childhood
You still need to deal with the aftermath though