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A Part of Me Died


I have been saved about a year and a half. I am a loud person by nature and have a sweet sense of humor. The Lord has been dealing with me for while now about being obedient and trusting in him in all things. I attend church faithfully and love my church family, how ver I feel some times my experiences are not of a common thing that I can discuss with my pastor who happens to be my father.

I have been called by God to preach his word which I will do with honor as he is the most high God. My greatest desire is to please God and I hope for all to be saved but I know that is not going to be a a possibility. While at work one day out of nowhere a feeling of death hit me. I was sad, just like one would be if a loved one past. I had a feeling of emptiness yet it was a feeling of being cleaned out, it was sad yet, is was like how you would feel if you had an itch you couldn't scratch until you were in a private place, and say "ahhhh" if that makes sense to anyone.

I was emotional and almost bought to tears for two days. On the third day it had pass and I have became a quiet person, people at work ask all the time what is the matter with you, it's just gone. I lost my desire to talk, every now and then the old me will say something funny or crazy, even my husband ask me what's going on.

Any comments or ideas. Just need some thoughts. Thanks

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Diane (guest)
14 years ago (2009-06-19)
TO Dixie as time pass since then I come to a living knowledge God is all knowing and wanting me to hear him. And he has taken me into a deep knowledge of life. He is faithful and is calling me to things I can't do in the natural. But he wants to be believe and truste no matter what. And he is GOD and is faithful in all things. I'm still quiet but its in my spirit I can't explain it, its like I can't be shaken. I cry a lot and sometimes I have to fake responses because I really don't worry and people look at me as if I'm unconcern or I don't care, time will reveal all these things to me. Gods blessings be with you all Diane
Diane (guest)
14 years ago (2009-06-19)
Thanks for all post it has been awhile so many things are still happening Glory be to God. I have a question. At work I recieved some stressful news about my father that he was diagnosed with cancer and it didn't look good I told them I was on my way. And the spirit came over me and I started speaking in tounges on the job infront everyone. And then I said Glory be to God. I never thought this would happen in a environment as such. All comments are welcomed. Thanks I believe by faith my dad is healed by the strips of Jesus and ask you to pray a speedy recovery in the name of the Lord.
Dixie (14 posts)
14 years ago (2009-04-24)
Just an idea maybe you should keep a journal of this experience, from start to finish. Plus write about many other wonderful things God has and will be doing for you. ❤ DIXIE
Dixie (14 posts)
14 years ago (2009-04-24)
I think God is molding you, your personality. He is bring you more in tune with Him. As worker for God you must be able to hear and understand what He wants from you. You are just growing spiritually.

How do you feel about this change? ❤ DIXIE
JITOW (guest)
14 years ago (2009-04-22)
Many folks use humor and talk a lot to mask other issues or what they internally think are short comings. I was a class clown for a while until I found out that it was not the mature thing to do. The life of the party is liked by everyone but rarely taken seriously or thought of as having much substance. I agree with the others here who feel that God was purging you of something that masked the real you. I think that you will see your humor come back but in a way that can glorify God. He wants you to be taken serious and I bet if you really sit down and ponder what happened that it will be a great testimony in what God has done for you and where He is leading you. Pray and read your Bible and the answer will come. A part of you did not die, He just refined it.
Lisa (guest)
15 years ago (2008-03-09)
Hi Diane, I don't think what happened to you was a bad thing... But actually I think God was healing a part of you that was the root cause of your need to be a chatterbox.

It doesn't mean you lost your nice personality. It just means that you will have more wisdom now on when to speak and joke and when to listen to that Inner voice of God.

You're becoming more balanced... I think God is getting your inner self ready for that ministry work where you will need to be more centered and quiet to hear what He wants you to convey to others.

The process is not complete yet. Then when you do chat with others, your sweet sense of humor will still be there, but the loudness and brassiness won't!

Hugs to ya!

Becky (guest)
15 years ago (2008-01-30)
Sometimes I am attacked by Satan. These are
difficult times. Pray more... Spend more time
studying the word, and spend time with people
you know are spiritual. It will get better. God
allows this for our spiritual growth. Hope this
Jannis (guest)
15 years ago (2008-01-26)
I have been a quiet person all my life. You would be amazed what all you can learn just by listening.

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