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Good Shepherd, Lost Sheep


I was twenty years old, and had given up on everything but sex and drugs. A few months before my "experience" I felt like praying to God, but did not, because I thought I would have to knock on doors and share some Biblical message. I was using scores of "diet pills" (amphetamines) every day. Sometimes I would use medication to sleep.

I was visiting a young lady in a school residence. I had lost 25 pounds. I was all but out of money and pills. I was in a foyer of some kind when in front of me was the face of Jesus. I knew Him instantly, somehow. I think He could simply assure me, without words, that He was He! I was amazed. I sensed a Presence in addition to Him, or along side of Him, which I call God.

That night I emotionally fell apart, and was crying. A young lady there tried to console me, and did, but I kept on expressing my fears and awful doubts about myself. She kindly excused herself, and I was 'alone'. The tears stopped, and I'm sure I blinked! There was Peace everywhere, a Divine Peace.

Good Shepherd, Lost Sheep

I know Jesus is alive. I have found literature that expresses many of His thoughts. I know God Is, which became clear also that night. I know I am part of God, and so are you!

I have given the bare bones of this experience which happened in 1971. I have no doubt about its Reality. That night, when the Peace had come, it led me to another experience, in which I saw a formless fullness of Life Itself. I call It God. It included me. I am not separate from It. It is always, and includes everyone. We are not often conscious of It. It is blissful and ecstatic by Nature. It is the Holy Self, of Which/Whom we are all Extensions.

I determined to stop using drugs that night, but I still smoke cigarettes. I have never used a drug whose experience was so Real, and I have never experienced anything more Bona fide than that experience of knowing, seeing, feeling Formless Bliss as All-Inclusive Self.

There are many Teachers, and many Teachings, and many of them integrate quite nicely. But there is no substitute for the kind of Help that comes when you need it, and not just when you ask for it! Even though I have so many 'imperfections', I can still talk to Jesus, because I know He is way ahead of me - well aware of this and that, and still has troubled to assure me of His nearness, and God's Eternalness. Like some of the others who have contributed to this cool web site, I do not know how to 'initiate' this Ideal Awareness of the Oneness-Truth, but I am sure enough that it is a function of 'remembering' what is, and not of "finding" it. Heaven for me is not a matter of a place, but of an awareness. "Awareness" does not mean an artificial temporal state of mind. It means a true observation of fact, of reality.

Reality is God - or that's the word I have been using. Whatever word someone uses scarcely matters. I think Jesus said it nicely, if He indeed said, "The truth shall set you free..."

All the rest is illusion.

We are in good hands. I pray that we each and all get to KNOW it, real soon!

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David (guest)
2 years ago (2021-10-01)
Hi Partisan. It's taken me a long time to read your story. I very much liked your comments about the Jesus miracle that happened to me in 2005, titled "Spiritual Warfare." Yes I agree, it was our time. When Jesus said, "I'm not just crying for you, but everyone in the world just like you who can't believe in Me," I had no idea I would find this website, three years later; to document that story. So you see, It floored me when I realized that Jesus meant to say those exact words on the world wide web! What an epiphany! I think it's a good idea to share your Jesus experience with those you may come across. I have. I'm sure you can see why. I liked your story! Take care my friend.
scarlett2 (1 stories) (34 posts)
12 years ago (2011-12-04)
Dear Partisan,
I am hoping that you still check in on this website. How inspiring and beautiful your words describing your divine experience are.

You have been very Blessed with the Grace of G-D...and He has bestowed the gift of wisdom/knowledge on you... His precious child.

I am very grateful that you had the courage and strength to realize that Our Lord wanted to help you just when you needed Him the most. You took His hand and allowed Him to lead you out of the darkness of despair and pain that addiction causes on others & their loved ones. You allowed Him to give you His light, love and strength and He bestowed His eternal joy on you. He led you to a divine spiritual transformation.

I pray so much for the ones that don't take His hand when He offers it. We all need to inspire others and lead by example.

You have done a wonderful thing in sharing your story. I pray others going through turbulent times with addiction will learn from your experience. He loves ALL of us, His creation, no matter what... And as you shared... He is always here waiting for us to open the door to allow Him in. He WILL come in. We just have to be ready for His knock on our door, and simply open the door when He does come.

I personally believe we all need to encourage and support our fellow brothers and sisters. The Lord taught that one can always test a Spirit with patience and understanding... By looking at the fruit. And the fruit of your divine encounter was... A transformed life "free of addiction." ❤

Blessings my friend.
Flutterofwings (17 stories) (110 posts)
15 years ago (2008-08-13)
I for a long time thought of myself as a lost sheep that no one wanted, not even the Lord. I prayed for so many years for the Lord to help me find a good man and when he did, I didn't realize it. But instead of making this man feel he was the lost sheep too we bonded. He and I are always togeather and loving every moment with the love we have with the Lord as he found two lost sheep and quided us to each other.
partisan (1 stories) (11 posts)
15 years ago (2008-08-11)
Hi Tina- In order to be honest about that experience, I have to tell it the way it was. You are most severely mistaken if you imagine that Jesus does not help people when they need it. I needed it. The fact that I had used diet pills extensively during that time does not immobilize Jesus Christ! Your assumptions are common and no one but Jesus can assure you that this incident occured just as I described it- though words do not convey the unforgettable beauty of it. I assure you, it was indeed a most Spiritual experience. If you are so close to Jesus as to be able to say what you have said, you could ask Him and hear the truth about this.
tina (guest)
15 years ago (2008-07-29)
That was not a spiritual experience, but "after drug" vision that's different.
partisan (1 stories) (11 posts)
15 years ago (2008-06-20)
Hi pinkbabe63.
I remember reading that Jesus has said (in a contemporary transcript of some of his thoughts), that it's not so much that people have been "mislead" in life, but rather, that they have not been 'lead' at all. In other words, that they have lacked for guidance.
pinkbabe63 (guest)
15 years ago (2008-06-18)
I just the read the title and had to write that, the other week I made up this random saying that 'a sheep with no shepherd is no sheep at all'. I don't know if this means something but it just came to my head

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