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Love Unblocked

 

After experiencing the intense heartache that comes with unrequited love, many people said to me that I had 'put up barriers' and that I was 'blocking love'. I didn't really understand what they meant, I didn't feel blocked. How could I be putting up blocks without meaning to?

Months later I got involved with a new man. The relationship lacked a connection for me and it felt as if I was cut off from a part of myself, but I thought nothing of it. I began to grow increasingly unhappy and frustrated that I couldn't seem to feel anything. Then this new man dropped a bombshell on me... I won't go into the details but this revelation left me feeling deceived and betrayed.

I struggled for nights on end trying to come to terms with this news when one night I woke up. But not fully and it felt like thoughts were being projected into my head. I was told that this new man came into my life to teach me a life lesson and to show me what life is like when you block love. I felt a weird feeling in my chest and the only way I can describe it is that my heart soared with this news and I just knew it to be true.

Over the next few days I had this nagging feeling in my stomach like there was something I had to do, I couldn't put my finger on it, I didn't know what the feeling was trying to tell me until I started meditating. The thought projection happened again and I knew I had to forgive him. I felt a roaring in my ears and a lightness in my heart.

A couple of months down the road, I have started to come back to my old self again and be happy as I once was. I feel like something has changed but it only hit home when my homeopath said to me that she could no longer get a closed off vibe from me.

I'm still confused as to how I blocked myself off in the first place. I didn't know that I could construct an invisible barrier around my heart. I also think its interesting that forgiveness was the key to lifting the block but I don't understand how forgiving the new man could unblock the block caused by the man before? But maybe I inadvertently forgave him too... Who knows... The mind boggles!

I would be very interested to hear if anyone else has had a similar experience to mine and could maybe shine some light on the issue.

Also, lately my heart feels like something is pressing down on it. Does anyone know what could be causing this? Is it healing? I have also been getting really bad headaches where it feels like my third eye chakra is bursting and energy is streaming out of it. Does anyone know what this means?

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sasj (1 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-08-15)
I had a very similar experience with 2 men. The first, I felt so much pain with, and the second was just a replacement situation. I tried so many techniques to let go including forgiving, but I still feel so much pain. How did you do it?
josey (1 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-08-14)
I understand what you mean by projecting thoughts into your mind. I call it a spiritual experience as well.

I was in a religion that was hurtful to people, and at the deepest moment of my hurt, I woke up in the middle of the night with thoughts pouring into my head. It was what I called "loud thoughts," and the thoughts told me me in so many words that this was not a good place for me to be. After the thoughts stopped, I found I could not return to the religion.

But this left me feeling numb for about 6 months, and I couldn't tell if it was "numbness" or just peace.

But due to being hurt in other religions since my heart is still blocked. Hopefully, I will get over it, because my spirituality has been lost.

Meditation can cause you to get headaches if not done properly, I believe this is what I read. It may also contribute to the pressure on your heart, but I am not sure. I hope you have a meditation teacher who you can talk with about this, and if you don't search for one that can give you an answer that feels right to you.
freespirit21 (1 stories) (2 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-07-12)
Thank you very much for your comment gypsylove. I'm so glad my story reached out to you!
gypsylove (1 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-07-10)
I feel the need to comment on this story, simply because it's nearly identical to the one I'm living right now. In fact, it almost brought me to tears, as I know what it feels like... To be lost from who you really are, but not know what happened. I have no doubt in my mind that I came across this site and story today for a reason. Thank you for sharing!
freespirit21 (1 stories) (2 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-06-29)
Thank you very much for your enlightening comment James and for sharing your story with me... Forgiveness is indeed a very powerful thing and one of the best gifts I now come to understand that you can give to yourself and others.

After reading your comment was mulling over forgiveness and looked out the window to see a white feather float down in my eyeline. Definately on the right track!

😊
James (10 stories) (151 posts)
 
6 years ago (2011-06-28)
Freespirit21

It is very difficult for us to understand why things happen in life at times and yes we do place "blocks" on oursleves without realizing it.

You were emotionally hurt by this man, so your mind placed a blockage to prevent any further harm coming to you and you had no idea this was happening. As you subsequently witnessed it was the forgiveness (yes forgiveness of yourself) that removed the blockage and life returned to the wonders that it is.

Freespirit21, I have had a hate for one particular race of people on this planet because of what they did to my brother. This was a deeply rooted hate for these peole and I didn't realize how deep this hatred went for I wasn't aware of it until I saw my brother.

When I saw him I was filled with instant anguish, tears and an anger for that race that I didn't know I had within me. I felt rage, violence and wanted to settle the score at all costs. My mind had taken over and it wasn't going to be satisfied until vengence had been acted upon...

Then the miracle happened, for it was indeed a miracle, my brother placed his hands upon my chest and simply said:

"...James ease your suffering and anger for the anger will not ease the pain, forgiveness will..."

At his touch I felt all anger, anguish, hatred being removed from my body as I discovered what it was to first forgive myself for having felt the way I did and then for forgiving them for what they did to my brother.

You see when we forgive ourselves for our inner "anguish" it becomes so much easier to forgive others, even when we do not know why or what we are forgiving them for.

Thank you for sharing this wonderful story with all of US, your Family In God

"...My Peace I Leave with You..."

James

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