My Twirling Light

I am a teenager and some of you know that some teenagers can be well out of hand and can be crazy but not me I have lived my life well I stay out of trouble I am polite, nice, caring teenage girl and I have been told countless times that I am way to mature for my age.

I mention all of that because I feel a calling while most teenagers my age are going out and having fun. I stay home and meditate or I try to figure out why I have this feeling of being "called" I guess you can call it a calling. I have always notice that when ever I get down or sad I just sit on my bed and when I do I just think about everything like the calling and every time I do that I notice that I always feel something awaking inside of me it feels like a light awaking inside it surrounds my body from the inside out.

I feel the light inside me I feel it in every pore of my body every hair every fiber I can feel the light covering my body and I mean my entire body. When my body is completely filled of the light the sadness begins to diminish and after several minutes the sadness just goes away until it no longer there.

When ever I feel the calling call me I feel like I am in a ocean with so many obstacles trying to block me from getting to where I need to get to yet I always feel that light pulling me to safety and to the right path but I still haven't reach the end. I feel something greater and I keep trying to find it what ever it is. I hope someone can help me understand what going on. I would have wrote this on psychic experiences but this web site feels like it the right place to write my story.