Before I start my story I want to let everyone know I was raised in the church my whole life and have always known God was real. My whole life ever since I was young I've seen demons or evil spirits, what have you. I was a good kid until I turned about 12 and a half to 13 and I started getting into drugs. I was very heavy into them until recently and they consumed my life on more than one occasion and the whole time led me very far away from God. This is the story of how he got me back. He tested me strength.
It all started christmas night when I gave into my anger and flipped on my family (they started it and deserved every bit of it) but it just broke me down and made me so angry that I cried. When all was said and done me and my girlfriend left and went to my mom's house so I could tell her what happened. After that we left and went back to my house. As I was going to sleep I felt a presence come over me, at first it came in me and showed me horrible visions of myself growing evil wings and turning into what looked like a demon to me and told me how it could give me all of that and all of what I wanted. I told it to leave and I didn't want those evil things. This continued for a while and once while I was about to fall asleep I felt my arms move and my hands wrap around my girlfriends throat to strangle her, which woke me up instantly and my hands and arms hadn't moved at all. I was just about to go to sleep and say screw it when a voice said to me "Jacob don't go to sleep, don't give into the darkness" and after that my heart was pumping so hard I felt like it was about to explode out of my chest. My body slept that night but my not mind.
Three days go by still with only body rest and no mind rest. I have researched mania and all kinds of other disorders (keep in mind I've never been that way a day in my life, manic of course) and I'm begining to think I'm going insane. I get the bright idea to go to my old neighborhood and get rid of my troubles the old fashioned way in hopes I can sleep. I go do my thing and still the same thing the 4th night.
Night 5. This was the night of my epiphany. Again this night I go out and do my thing and go to my friend's house (the same house I messed with a Ouija board in) I'm in a great mood telling them how I found myself in their house etc. And then I went until what felt like a trance. I was doing my body rest thing and out of nowhere I said John 3:16 and can clearly remember it. After I knew I wouldn't sleep I got up and sat in a chair in the middle of the room to where I could see everybody.
I started to notice my 2 buddies saying something about doing the deal and how they have to do it quick and now and my buddy gets up and walks by me barely then walks back by me and I look up and see him blow on me which I thought odd. I felt many presences in the room and I could only pinpoint a few and the rest were too fuzzy to pinpoint. The two parents of the house and their son along with 2 of my buddies knew something was not right with me and it scared them but for some reason I knew they were ok with it. Shortly after my buddy blew on me I felt a few more presences trying to get at me and it was the fuzzy ones. And then a voice said through me and I still don't know how it said it but it said "If you are here to get rid of this demon (and it called it by its name which I won't reference) in this manner it won't work, because this is not the way to do it" the voice that said this was so warm and soothing and full of love that I accepted it and I knew it was the holy spirit. And as soon as I accepted it I heard whispers of curses all around me. After that I asked my buddy that blew on me which way he was going when he died (I told home I was going up because I chose god when I felt like if I didn't this demon or evil spirit would have killed me if I hadn't) to which he couldn't even answer and didn't even know. Much more happened that night but its so much to type. After I chose God and had my epiphany I went home and FINALLY my mind rested along with my body, which I had been praying to god since the 3rd day to give me.
While with this good presence I saw things about the world I feel as if I was not meant to know but for some reason god wanted me to know it. After I chose my side in this battle I was seeing people for who they truly were and it scared me and I feel like God took that sight away from me again because maybe I'm still not ready for it. But my eyes are still open to where I can see and I now have ears and I listen. Since my epiphany and I chose God I've been reading my bible and praying and when I do I feel the most tender loving presence with me. I'm still new to this new world I see and hear and still new to my renewed faith in God so any comments on this experience of mine would be very helpful and much appreciated
Thanks to all who read this and I pray God blesses all of you.
Thank you and Godbless