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My Terrible Oppression

 

Before I start my story I want to let everyone know I was raised in the church my whole life and have always known God was real. My whole life ever since I was young I've seen demons or evil spirits, what have you. I was a good kid until I turned about 12 and a half to 13 and I started getting into drugs. I was very heavy into them until recently and they consumed my life on more than one occasion and the whole time led me very far away from God. This is the story of how he got me back. He tested me strength.

It all started christmas night when I gave into my anger and flipped on my family (they started it and deserved every bit of it) but it just broke me down and made me so angry that I cried. When all was said and done me and my girlfriend left and went to my mom's house so I could tell her what happened. After that we left and went back to my house. As I was going to sleep I felt a presence come over me, at first it came in me and showed me horrible visions of myself growing evil wings and turning into what looked like a demon to me and told me how it could give me all of that and all of what I wanted. I told it to leave and I didn't want those evil things. This continued for a while and once while I was about to fall asleep I felt my arms move and my hands wrap around my girlfriends throat to strangle her, which woke me up instantly and my hands and arms hadn't moved at all. I was just about to go to sleep and say screw it when a voice said to me "Jacob don't go to sleep, don't give into the darkness" and after that my heart was pumping so hard I felt like it was about to explode out of my chest. My body slept that night but my not mind.

Three days go by still with only body rest and no mind rest. I have researched mania and all kinds of other disorders (keep in mind I've never been that way a day in my life, manic of course) and I'm begining to think I'm going insane. I get the bright idea to go to my old neighborhood and get rid of my troubles the old fashioned way in hopes I can sleep. I go do my thing and still the same thing the 4th night.

Night 5. This was the night of my epiphany. Again this night I go out and do my thing and go to my friend's house (the same house I messed with a Ouija board in) I'm in a great mood telling them how I found myself in their house etc. And then I went until what felt like a trance. I was doing my body rest thing and out of nowhere I said John 3:16 and can clearly remember it. After I knew I wouldn't sleep I got up and sat in a chair in the middle of the room to where I could see everybody.

I started to notice my 2 buddies saying something about doing the deal and how they have to do it quick and now and my buddy gets up and walks by me barely then walks back by me and I look up and see him blow on me which I thought odd. I felt many presences in the room and I could only pinpoint a few and the rest were too fuzzy to pinpoint. The two parents of the house and their son along with 2 of my buddies knew something was not right with me and it scared them but for some reason I knew they were ok with it. Shortly after my buddy blew on me I felt a few more presences trying to get at me and it was the fuzzy ones. And then a voice said through me and I still don't know how it said it but it said "If you are here to get rid of this demon (and it called it by its name which I won't reference) in this manner it won't work, because this is not the way to do it" the voice that said this was so warm and soothing and full of love that I accepted it and I knew it was the holy spirit. And as soon as I accepted it I heard whispers of curses all around me. After that I asked my buddy that blew on me which way he was going when he died (I told home I was going up because I chose god when I felt like if I didn't this demon or evil spirit would have killed me if I hadn't) to which he couldn't even answer and didn't even know. Much more happened that night but its so much to type. After I chose God and had my epiphany I went home and FINALLY my mind rested along with my body, which I had been praying to god since the 3rd day to give me.

While with this good presence I saw things about the world I feel as if I was not meant to know but for some reason god wanted me to know it. After I chose my side in this battle I was seeing people for who they truly were and it scared me and I feel like God took that sight away from me again because maybe I'm still not ready for it. But my eyes are still open to where I can see and I now have ears and I listen. Since my epiphany and I chose God I've been reading my bible and praying and when I do I feel the most tender loving presence with me. I'm still new to this new world I see and hear and still new to my renewed faith in God so any comments on this experience of mine would be very helpful and much appreciated

Thanks to all who read this and I pray God blesses all of you.

Thank you and Godbless

Jacob

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Timfaraos (131 posts)
 
9 years ago (2015-01-26)
Be sure you're being guided by the Holy Spirit, and not the 'horny spirit'! Good luck!
Onawingandaprayer (30 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-13)
KnifeGuy

Ah okay... I see what your saying

"Keep The Blue-side Up"

David
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-12)
good Anne don't let the get you down in the dumps! That's what thry want to do! I'm sorry to hear about what happened to you: (but it was all for a greater purpose it seems and I'm glad that you saw it that way. Keep your head up.
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-11)
And Anne ill read the books but I already know the extent of their power and the way they try to manipulate us and influence our decisions with tempts and whispering "sweet nothings" in our ear and conscience and it does destroy soooo many people:/ I have many people in my family who are so lost and think all kinds of drugs and alcohol will cure their problems and now there so deep in they can't get out too easily and don't listen to anyone but themselves. Angels and Demons ARE real and they fight for everyone everyday and they try HARD to influence us (Demons mostly) just pray to God to give his Angels strength and itll be a big help.
Realize the Power of Prayer (it helps more than most think)
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-11)
Anne I watched it all go down (Revelation, The War between The Forces of Light and The Forces of Darkness) and it won't be pretty: (I have no idea at all why I was shown these things but I was. I have a conviction almost to the point of certainty itll be in my lifetime and I feel like ill be in The War fighting for the light (because in what I saw, we will be involved and itll be very bloody and much death) I'm not trying to scare anyone with this and sorry if I do but I have to tell people and get their veiws on it cause I can't talk to many people in my family about this because they have not experienced the spiritual world the way I have and because of me trying to tell them my own dad thinks I'm halfway crazy now when I know I'm not. My whole life I have felt like a warrior and I was meant to do something great and I have always had this underlying sense of the spiritual world and I have been seeing Demons/Ghosts/Spirits whatever you want to call them my whole life since I was very young and apparantly according to my mother even since before I can remember. I have always felt close to any weapon I pick up, like its a part of me ESPECIALLY swords, knives etc. And now I know why I have always felt like a warrior and I feel. Its because I'm to participate in this war (and I hope I do cause I want to fight with Jesus and fight the good fight:) ) but I saw The End or The Tribulation and the deceitfulness that will be used in it and the trickery and plots and the people that succumb will be so numerous: (but they know no better and if they do and get The Mark, which I think will be some sort of microchip with all our life data and all about us on it, then they are foolish beyond measure. The War will be a very big battle and our guns WILL fail us to where we have to go back to our old roots of swords etc. The Children of Light will battle against the Children of the Darkness and sorry to say it yall there will be many many Children of the Darkness because they are too of this world and love all its evil too much. But the Light will win but not without much struggle and against terrible odds in terms of numbers go. I feel many people are starting to wake up to the world and choose their side and I just hope and pray that they choose wisely and know the consequence if they choose the wrong side (not trying to say all people will burn who don't convert blazeh blazeh cause I'm not like that, what everyone does is between THEM AND GOD, I will not judge anyone for I am no judge)
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-11)
i just wasn't trying to have you look at it in a wrong way is all cause I'm not here to try to offend anyone at all cause that's not what I'm trying to do you didn miss anything I'm just saying it cause I'm not trying to offend you is all. And the second part is just me goin on about The End, Revelation, The War etc.
Onawingandaprayer (30 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-11)
knifeguy

Not aure what you were "...knocking me..." about, I guess I missed something along the way.

"...you may have no idea how soon and neither do I for only God knows the time and hour but I have a strong conviction I guess you can say itll be in my lifetime..."

Here again, did I miss something?

Keep The Blue-side Up

Dave M
anneke8 (1 stories) (12 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-10)
I would love to hear about your experiences Knifeguy!
Could you please tell it to us? I read many books about people that Gog gave revelations to and it is amazing! Do your self a favour and read the books by Mary K Baxter. After I read it, I know so much more about the demons and angels - how the demons try to destroy us and how the angels battle with them to keep them away from us. I had a mastectomy at the age of 36 (I'm 37 now) and it was a horrible experience for me. I was always very over my looks, my long blond hair, my nice body etc. Actualy I was a bit vain. I lost all my hair, I lost one of my breasts and it was very traumatic. Those books kept me going, so much that I even was very optimistic and good spirited.
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-09)
Not trying to knock you at all onawingandprayer because I like what you put up and not trying to say anything bad about you saying that. I'm simply just saying lol
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-09)
and onawingandprayer you may have no idea how soon and neither do I for only God knows the time and hour but I have a strong conviction I guess you can say itll be in my lifetime, from yhe things I saw, to the fact that many many of the prophecies are coming true and the worlds starting to show its true colors to many people. But your words were very comforting and guiding too and so is everyone elses, I'm just glad I can come on here and tell my story and not be looked upon as crazy when I know I'm not:)
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-09)
And elschofar you are very right. I feel like a whole lot more people are waking up to the world and seeing it for what it TRULY is and not what we were tricked into thinking it is. I hope and pray that many people see as I have seen that this world is not our true home and that its the closest thing to Hell us Children Of Light will ever see. I have left Babylon far behind me and I don't ever want to go back so I will do all I can to stay on the path to life:) thank you for your guiding words:)
knifeguy6070 (1 stories) (11 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-09)
TreeToucher and Anne yall are both very right! I have been praying daily and thanking God for all Hes given me and He has truly helped me in my life since then. I know what I had happen to me is not something most people would want to happen but in a sense I'm glad it happened cause it brought me back to God and to The Light:)) Now I have a very very real sense of what goes on daily around people and a very real sense of the spiritual world now (to the point of eerieness sometimes, but I know God and The Spirit are with me so I fear no evil and never will) and I know my side and can't be swayed. The Holy Spirit haa been very good to me and I truly feel I am special too. My whole life I have felt as if I was meant for something greater and now I know what it is:) I thank God everyday for helping me and I pray everyday He gives his Angels strength and for dicernment of the voices as well (which have become much less, I came across a vile nasty man who was a "trickster" I call em cameleons but needless to say he had many forces working around him who were not good at all and I could tell by there little whispers) but God has helped me through that too, I am truly eternally grateful to Him for what he has done and the gifts he gave me:) if anyone wants to get into a discussion about spiritual gifts and the things I saw in my journey with the holy spirit ill gladly get into it cause I love talkin about this stuff. But thank you all for helping me out on this, sorry it took so long to get back:/
anneke8 (1 stories) (12 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-09)
Knifeguy, read these 2 books of Mary K Baxter
'A devine revelation of the Spirit Realm' and
'A devine revelation of Angels'.
It helped met through the darkest time in my life!
It will change your perspectives completely.
elschofar (5 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-08)
Dear Jacob, you need to seek a pentecostal type church or a church with a lot of experiences in the Holy Spirit. The Lord is awakening His children of faith from around the world and reuniting the Body of Christ. You can ask the Holy Spirit to show you where to look or what to do. TIP: to discern the voices of darkness from the Voice of God- you will see by the results and love and peace that always accompanies the Holy Spirit. Do not be araid- When God is with us, nothing and no one can get to us. The tricks and lies of darkness is to seduce your carnal impluses so I recommend lots of Reading and fininding the company of other people who walk in the Holy Spirit.
God Bless. Be wary of trickster and false prophets ASK GOD TO reveal to you and HE will- Just Give in to GOD and His processes will become clearer to u. Be safe and wise in the Love of Jesus Christ may His powerful Blood keep you safe always. Amen.
Onawingandaprayer (30 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-07)
Hello knifeguy

Not sure if this belongs here or somewhere else, but I have just typed a bunch of sayings that have come to my head and reading of your past troubles it kind of made sense to post this here.

Anyway here it is:

Thought For the day

Every now and then
Life throws us a curve
And no matter how we try to cope
It seems we just fall deeper into our depressed state
Never realizing that the path to clarity is truly at hand
Each day we ask "why me" or "how come..."

Yet if we stop and think about things
Often the answers become very clear
Up until now we just look skyward for the truth

And yet the truth is not found by looking there
Remember to look within for the truth to behold
Each time you do, the answer will bring a little light to your day

Look to the voice within, see that which is truly you
Open your heart to the world around you
Verily verily, one man said meaning the truth comes forth
Each time you search for the truth within, it will be there
Deny yourself no longer, see the darkness no longer

May the skies appear blue and clear when all around
You there are those who challenge you with their inner darkness

Come forth from your gloom and see the wonders of yourselves
Have faith that the darkness of your day is but in your thoughts 
I have not made you to feel true pain, when none is put forth
Live every day as a symbol of my love for you all
Do not despair when life SEEMS to be gloomy

Yearn not for the comfort of those who have passed
Open your heart and shower their memory with love
Under a rainbow of golden love are they now
Rejoice, in their passing to me

Fear not for yourself
Always show others WHO YOU ARE
Take the time to nurture your Rose within my Garden
Have faith that I am always here
Enjoy giving nothing but love to your fellow man
Receive the gift of love openly and unconditionally

I AM THAT I AM
NOW AND FOREVER MORE

Hear these words within your hearts
Each and every day
Always be the Love and Light to your fellow man
Very soon all will be as it should
And the world will know the glory of My Son once again
Now and Forever

Amen
TreeToucher (1 stories) (8 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-02-02)
Jacob,
Just as Anne remarked, you are special. I do believe that you have had some serious intervention from your Angels/Guardians/Spirits of Light = God's front line. My belief is that we all have a purpose (my opinion - it doesn't have to be yours), and you have something to do in this life that was getting sidelined. Keep this in mind; and know how special you are. Our 'true' selves are made of the Light & Love that is God. We just happen to be in human bodies (for now) and with that comes 'free-will' - we choose. We can choose the Light or the shadows and we make choices every day. Since we're human, we are going to make mistakes and wrong choices. As long as we can realize those wrong choices, work to not repeat them, and pray for forgiveness & guidance, we're choosing the Light & Love of God. Jesus knows that it is 'tuff' being human, he went through it too, and so he has a great understanding about the things you may need help/strength/guidance with.
You've been 'thrown a rope' Jacob, grab it and hold on tight. Give thanks for all the gifts you're given (everyday - everything). If the shadows start circling, tell them with conviction, to leave and not return. Lastly, choose your company well and pay attention to your instincts (I think they are actually Angels, tapping on your shoulder!).
For you Jacob, Blessings of Friendship, Love, and Health, from Treetoucher
timciurdas (4 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-01-31)
I'm only sharing this because youre new to it and I am not sure if you know this or not. It is a sin to be sleeping with your girlfriend and even in more depth its a sin to be in the same bed. God wants us to remain pure until marriage... Even if you were unpure before you ask for forgiveness and work on doing anything possible to remain cleansed. God is VERY strict. He tells us that just by thinking of something impure we are already sinning. So fight the good fight and remember to remain clean. You will be in my prayers.
anneke8 (1 stories) (12 posts)
 
12 years ago (2012-01-27)
Actualy this is a wonderful experience you had! Not many of us get a chance like this in our lives.
I always say, bad things must happen to us for a reason, it is a eye opener. I wish something like this will hapen to a couple of people I know for them to redeem themselves.
Good for you! God bless and strongs. Keep the faith!
Remember, you a special!

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